Today I Read...

So there was an article about the photographing of kids in situations that were considered at least by some to be innapropriate. But I’ve found a major problem with this, and it’s affecting my life currently...first of all, the photographer supposedly wrote (or said) that the images remind her of what life was like in the 70’s, when kids could dress up in what is now widely, if not totally, considered explitive, clothing. What I got from this is that I get reminded of my childhood by all of the beautiful faces that I’ve seen, but the problem I have with myself is that I’m older than I actually look. You might think, "Okay then", but I've been trying to be serious!

Daily Summary 8/30/2018

8/30/2018 Walked for about three hours, laid in bed for about two hours, went to the mall and returned about two hours later. Then browsed the web for about two hours. Later had dinner, then read a magazine for about two hours. Later I went to sleep for about eight hours. 8/31/2018 Had breakfast for about an hour, before walking for about two hours. Then I went to the store and came back about three hours later. Then I had lunch. Later I laid in bed for about two hours. Then I read for about 1 to 2 hours. Later I browsed the web for about three hours, before going to sleep for about eight hours. 9/1/2018 Had breakfast for about an hour, before walking for about an hour. Then I laid in bed for about two hours, before talking to my dad for an hour, and browsing the web for about three hours. Later I had lunch. 9/4/2018 I made dinner, then ate dinner for about an hour. Later I browsed the web for about three hours. I also walked for about three hours. 9/3/2018 After sleeping for about 8 hours, eating breakfast for an hour, I went to Ann Arbor where I walked a lot, looked at electronics at Best Buy and returned in the evening. Then I browsed the web for about three hours, and did some walking. 9/4/2018 After having breakfast for 1 hour, I browsed the web for about three hours. Later I walked for about three hours. Then I had lunch. I helped make dinner for about half an hour, then ate dinner for about an hour. 9/5/2018 After having breakfast, I laid in bed for about two hours, then browsed the web for about 3 hours. I talked with someone about a job interview.

Daily summary

8/26/2018 Today I had breakfast for about na hour then laid in bed for about two hours. Then i browsed the internet for about two hours. Later i went to a friends House for about 6 hours to talk with her and other people. I then went Home and Walked for about two hours, before browsing the Web for about three hours. Later i went to sleep for about eight hours. 8/27/2018: Had breakfast then laid in bed for about two hours. Then I walked for about three hours. Later I browsed the web for about two hours, before having lunch for about 1 hour. At about 10PM, went to sleep for about eight hours. 8/28/2018 Slept in bed for about three hours. Breakfast for about 1 hour, then browsing the web for about three hours. Walked for about three hours. Had dinner for about an hour. Did some photography two hours. Later slept for about 8 hours. 8/29/2018 Laid in bed for about two hours then had breakfast 1 hour. Later i Walked for about 2 hours and browsed web for two hours. Later had lunch then i laid in bed for about an hour. Then i went to psychologist.

Daily Summary for Psych

8/17/2018 I walked for about two hours, after which I had lunch, then watered plants. I did some photography for about two hours. Later I surfed the web, then had dinner for about an hour. Later, I watched some TV for about two hours, after which I slept for about 6 hours. 8/18/2018 I walked for about two hours, then laid in bed for about two hours, after which I surfed the web for about two hours, then had lunch. Later, I talked with a friend of mine for about three to four hours. I later had dinner for about an hour, after which I sat around outside. Later, I slept for about two hours. I surfed the web for about two hours. Then I watched TV for about two hours. I watched "To All The Boys I Loved Before", Dark Tourist, Most Unknown, etc. Later I went to sleep for about eight hours. 8/19/2018 I had breakfast, then talked with a friend for about 4 hours. Then I walked for about two hours, after which I had lunch. Later I browsed the web. 8/20/2018 After sleeping for about 8 hours, I had breakfast, then walked for about two hours. Later I laid in bed for about two hours. Then I browsed the web for about two hours. I also did some photography for about two hours, later watched TV for about two hours. 8/21/2018 After sleeping for about 8 hours, I had breakfast. I laid in bed for about two hours, then browsed the web for about two hours. A friend of mine then came over for about an hour, after which I went to his house to watch some TV for about an hours. Then I walked for about two hours. I also tried to do some photography for about two hours. 8/22/2018 After sleeping for about 8 hours, I had breakfast for about an hour, then laid in bed for about two hours, after which I walked for about two hours. Then I browsed the web for about two hours. Later some photography for about two hours or more.

I've Lost it for good.

I tried getting over the fact that some people have deleted me off of their Facebook, but it keeps coming back. I think I’ve lost it, for good.

Maybe capsaicin can make me invincible to Cancer, or at least inflammation?! I suppose that it’d take many centuries to build up enough of the chemical though.

The Truth About My Life

There have definitely been times when I’ve seen specific types of people out in public but can’t muster the courage to meet them, and they were usually good looking people. But you know, when I leave the store (for example), I feel sorry for leaving and abandoning those types of people. And afterwards, it’s as though I’ve been literally teleported into the other side, if you know what I mean. There’s one side, it’s called life, and there’s another side, that which is pretty much totally unknown to us and I have the constant fear that although it seems that I’ve returned to life, I’m too terrified that it’s like an ilusion, that I haven’t actually returned to life, that I’m acfually dead just by the mere fact of knowing that I can’t get back to all of these people, as I’ve got no communication, I didn’t jot down a number or anything. This is a miserable life, one that I definitely “regret”.

What’s going on, everyone?!

Daily Summary

Today I got back from phsychologist and store, then checked out my brother’s new camper and showed him my vacation photos. Next, I read various things in the internet and even wrote in my own blog. Next, sleep for 8 hours. Lay in bed for about an hour. Eat breakfast for an hour. Then watch Youtube for about an hour and write. Walk for about 2 hours, then have lunch. Dinner for an hour. 8/1/2018: After sleeping for about 8 hours, I then I did some reading on the web for about two hours, then laid in bed for about two hours. I had breakfast, then I walked. I listened to some music later. Dinner for about an hour, then browsing the web. 8/2/2018: After sleep for 8 hours, I laid in bed for about 1 hour, then walked for about 1 hour, browsed online for 1 hour, then went to the store and returned home after two hours. Then I had dinner for about 1 hour. I did some more walking for about an hour, as well as browsing online. I then helped mom for about 1 hour with preparing cabbage. Then I did some writing for about two hours. Laid in bed for about an hour. Later, I went to sleep for about 8 hours. 8/3/2018: Then I ate breakfast, did some walking for about 2 hours, then talked with my aunt for about an hour. I later wrote for about an hour and looked at the internet for about two hours. Had dinner for about an hour. 8/4/2018: Breakfast, then some walking for two hours, lay in bed for an hour. Have lunch for an hour, then read for an hour, write for an hour, surf the web for two hours. Dinner later for an hour. Help with watering plants around the house for about two hours. TAlked to parents about changing psychiatrist. Later go to bed for 9 hours. 8/5/2018: Walk for two hours, have breakfast, read for an hour, write for an hour, surf the web for two hours, later had dinner for an hour, walked a little, went to town and got back two hours later, and watered the plants around the house for about two hours, did some yard work. Laid in bed for about an hour. Went to sleep for about 9 hours. 8/6/2018 Had breakfast for about an hour, walked for about two hours, read for an hour, write for an hour, surf the web for two hours, check on jobs, talk with mom for about an hour, went to the store for an hour and returned two hours later, have dinner later, talk with guests for about two hours. Lay in bed for about two hours. Later, go to bed for about 9 hours. 8/7/2018: Had breakfast for about an hour, laid in bed for nearly two hours, checked on social media, surfed the web (1 hour), read (1 hour), write (1 hour), later had lunch (1 hour), walked about two hours, wrote in my daily activity report, later went to phsychologist.

Study has shown that fewer teens drink milk today; there’s some progress. I opt for almond milk instead, and eggs are nasty. Meat is something else that I try to avoid.

Summer solstice is arriving quick!

The weather here where I live, in southern central part of lower michigan, is set up in a way for big storms in the next few days at least. On about the 21st of June, the sun will rise extremely high in the sky here; in fact. it will seem pretty much like 90 degrees up, meaning that that the amount of heat coming to us will be amped, providing ample CAPE, or available convective potential energy to these storms. I think that for the next four days, Tuesday is most likely to bring the most severe weather. Temperatures are supposed to plummet from about 94 to the upper 70’s. I’m excited for the great lakes to start getting warmer because of such weather.

Funny Youtube Comments

I can't take the comments people are leaving on various videos on Youtube, such as the one about pixels being demons, when they were actually pixelation caused by shitty video codec. They are so funny. Helps me get through the day I guess. I'm looking for "painkillers" in life that can get me through unpleasant times and writing crazy stuff is one way to get it done.

I need to switch to online class

People can't take what I write, which is why I hated school. I can't go back to school, unless it's an online course; I'm practically banned, not that it affects me, but I have to take online courses only anyways, I'm not going to explain why because I don't think there's a way to do that. I need to move to another campus because I'm traumatized by the one I was at and I felt that the most worst would happen.

You crack me the fuck up

When you complain to me, you crack me the fuck up; I mean, I've been writing about 10 different blogs. And since nothing interesting has been happening, I've been taking alternative writing styles.

Re: Change blog address

I'm going to change blog address. You aren't allowed to find it. Uh oh! Actually this one will probably still exist, but you know...the link to this will work, "but wait, oh no, I was going to complain about someone who I think is mentally ill!"

The 10 demons

You still don't get it, do you?! I was writing about something that I thought would be obvious. Seriously, I'm considered condemned for all of this writing. Because you people can't distinguish the ways that it's possible to think.

change this blog address please!

I'm goin to change this blog address like I promised, because idiots are viewing it again and so you all think that it'll help the situation to act this way to me?!

"UFO" captured during continuous long exposures

Today I took over 400 long exposures of the night sky. A few pretty large meteors, which were out of frame, and early on in the night I saw something really extraordinary; this one in particular I didn’t get a full recording as it literally disappeared into the night sky. I was very close, as in a second, from capturing a meteor which I only saw on my camera display, and it appeared to make the display very bright! Unfortunately, the camera was delayed by the time I took a photo. I did, however, capture something interesting after I set my camera, which was connected to a remote shutter release to take one photo immediately after another, on a tripod. I used an ISO of 12800, and shutter speeds were two and a half seconds. Aperture was f/1.8. The object moved through the frame for a total of 117.5 seconds, or nearly two minutes, as the camera was set to 28mm focal length. I merged 17 of the photos together to try and show what a single, 42.5 second exposure would have produced; as you are able to see in the following photo, the object faded out against a cloudless sky for about five photos, or about 12 seconds. There was an interval between every photo, which is why the streak of light isn’t a single continuous line. I don’t know what it is, but maybe someone has a clue. I’ll have to check the satellite database and time of capture of the photos. I can also calculate the magnitude, to see if it matches that of any satellites that could match. Honestly, I’ve never seen this phenomenon before except for that video that I recently posted onto Youtube. There are advantages and drawbacks to when you decide on a compromise whether shutter speed, or ISO. A longer shutter speed would make the object appear nicer, but if that coincided with the high ISO value, then the amount of noise would be very high. And going too low in terms of an ISO value would make the object very dim, as 12800 is very high. I suspect that the object was extremely dim, so I’m not sure if it could’ve been a reflection of the sun. Edit; I don't think you can see it here, but one of the frames which might not have been included, shows the object got brighter towards the end of the frame. It might have been a plane, but it's difficult for me to conclude whether the object was or wasn't blinking, even though I mentioned previously that it was because of a delay between photos. Each photo is essentially the same as a frame grab from a video, except of course, the shutter speed was 2.5 seconds. I can verify that there was a delay between photos, as the camera did process each photo, which took time, and if the object were blinking, my guess is that the lines wouldn't all be of the same length. Then again, this is very difficult to determine.

Maybe I’m having grandiose delusions of a perfect world, that everyone could act fairly and with justice. Maybe it’s just a fantasy and I might not have to expect anything better from this world. Perhaps I might just be a dreamer. I thought however, that this would be the way that this world would unfold, that everyone could be just and fair... Perhaps I should give up on such a fantasy, and get back to reality, which is a bitch

I hope that I capture something unexplainable on camera today, if I can get around all of the useless light pollution.

What’s that thing identical to mental illness? Oh wait, it’s not a condition, it actually called reality.

This is what it's all about

Life is transcendental and I don’t know if I have the capacity to understand it fully enough... however, writing the truth like this, causing relief, then listening right afterwards to some neat music. I listen to Kygo remixes. I don’t know where the musicians came from, but they are phenomenal. Almost all of them are ones I’ve never heard of before.

There’s something unsettling about our reality, and it doesn’t really make sense...

I can’t help but to admit that there’s something deep about this world which truly terrifies me and makes me feel as though I’m about to go down into a vortex. I was reading on Wiki about various musicians, and there’s something about it, their life situation or perhaps something of the like, which greatly unsettles me and makes me feel so unpleasant that yes, LITERALLY, it feels just like what you feel when you notice someone dying from lethal injection. Quite honestly, I don’t know what the hell’s going on, but there’s like an alternate reality out there which I’ll be swallowed by, like a tornado. Is this what’s called a rite of passage? Even though my feelings have been downright indescribable, as I just descirbed, there’s a little sliver of “light” which makes me feel hopeful about all of this, and that there must be a reason for these feelings. I feel that even the worst of all feelings are important and we as people need to experience them; for what reason, is anyone’s guess, but there must be something much more to this life than meets the surface. There’s definitely more to life, at least to mine, than can possibly be described or explained. I’m in some truly deep territory here. And by deep, I mean as in hundreds or thousands of feet below the surface, whether it be the surface of water or ground doesn’t matter. These feelings have a truly high cost which I can’t express, at least not using words. You don’t need to tell me, I understand that all of this is terrifying just reading about it, but I thought that I had to try to release the steam from below, and get some fresh air from above. Perhaps it’s my delusion that I once lived a life before this, and things were much like they are here, and I know where this is going to; I’m not trying to go that far, but still, it’s still unexplainable. If I haven’t mentioned already, there’s something deep and disturbing about this life in general, and the reason I haven’t thought about it before is that most of my feelings are currently unconscious.

This is what I ponder

I’ve seen some truly astounding imagery of our universe, even the imagery that has been done by amateur astronomers using consumer grade equipment. Looking over such photos, I wonder if video equipment will ever achieve such quality in single video frames when filmed at frame rates above 30 frames per second. Now that would essentially take the idea of “astounding photography” to a whole new level. I’m sure that if a single video frame could capture what Hubble captured in the course of minutes or hours we could then expect to see much more, extremely impressive things happening in our skies. Now have a camera that can not only do that, but can also record the video non stop and select any frames that show anything out of the ordinary occurring, then to me that would be about the equivalent of winning the jackpot; essentially every frame would be a dollar to me. I don’t why exactly, however it’s truly astounding to think about such a concept. The universe is essentially here in our hands, we just have to manufacture the correct equipment to make it come alive! My 20 megapixel stills from my 4.5 inch, 900mm focal length. scope which were done through a Kellner 25mm eyepiece are literally good for nothing, despite zooming in 3.6x. I see to it that in the future, I’m not sure when exactly, we will enter into this “magical” time when the Universe will be seen in a new perspective. Now that’s something! Usually, for astronomers atmospheric turbulence is undesirable, however, I look at it a different way: atmospheric effects are like art effects applied to a video or even photo in Photoshop. Of course, don’t get me wrong, atmospheric influence is a major problem, however, in some ways it can be beautiful when captured the in the correct way. If we were to do such experiments over a long enough time, which would probably take many decades, if not much longer, then we could create a very compelling study of the changes that are happening in the Earth’s atmosphere! I wish that we lived in a larger timeframe so that we could see time lapse videos of far flung stellar objects such as galaxies and nebula as they are being destroyed, created, and “modified” by universal forces. Now, let’s step away from astronomy. I think that creative photos of our own world show what’s mostly invisible to our own vision. For example, a long exposure of 10 seconds of water flowing in a river can be interesting, but unfortunately, our own human vision simply isn’t capable of such feats. What if that wasn’t true though? What if our brains could process information using various “Settings” such as what a camera can, for example, adjusting single processed images once every 10 seconds using a “shutter speed” (or brain processing time) of 10 seconds? What if the following photo was a single frame from a normal video?! Imagine the implications. What would we need? Would we need an imaging sensor the size of many square miles, or a scope with a mirror many miles in diameter? Otherwise, don't expect much from a video; most of the time, chances are that the image would be dark with nothing in it. Take this photo of Jupiter that I took; this is the best I could do with my camera's 1080p, despite quite an impressive additional zoom of about 20x or more. I'd really like to see a video such as what was described earlier in this post, illustrating the differences between a clear and a hazy atmosphere. Well guess what? I'm going out today because the weather is cooperating, so maybe capture something interesting in the night sky. The only complaint that I have today is that I'm missing my glasses, leaving all of the stellar objects practically invisible to my vision. My image makes me want to shit my pants compared to what today's amateur astronomers could probably do with the same exact equipment.

Why?

Why is it like this in my life? I sometimes wonder how it’d be if everyone were to treat me like they should. That’d definitely make a world of difference and I expect that times would return to how they were a very long time ago...as in, years ago. Sure, life might not be fair, but this is overkill for me and I can’t stand it. There are no good days in my life anymore.

Re: end of the world

Go to https://youtu.be/ESk2WMJVskk?t=154 and see for yourself; a day after I wrote about the end of the world, there's now evidence, if not proof, that storm systems are fractals.I suppose that it might just be a mere coincidence, just something to keep in mind. Perhaps that's something that I forgot to mention about the end of the world! But other than this, I’ve been an avid thinker of fractalized storm complexes; maybe not much of that is noticeable on Earth, but somewhere else, we could see stuff like circle fractals when looking straight down from above at a large cell surrounded by subsequent smaller cells, each of which are surrounded by smaller cells, etc. We sure have a very long time until July, don’t we?! I suppose that it could be interesting to have a fractal tornado appear in real life before my very own eyes, and have that little one spin right on top of me. Just kidding on that one.

Everyone acting as though everything’s alright

Keep telling me the lie using your behavior that everything’s alright, that it’s all acceptable, that nothing’s wrong with life. Keep pretending that there’s justice in the world, that I’m not troubled and hurt; delete me off of Facebook without any reason, yet you keep friends with people who seem totally fine. It’s totally unfair to live in the midst of people like this. Keep pretending that great things can come about and that there’s still time for good despite this injustice, that people aren’t bad. I’d rather die than be a part of such circumstances against me.

The end of the world, and some thoughts about the mind

During the end of the world, the sun will set more slowly. For me personally, it would be a relief if my emotions and feelings simply went away. Anyway, Jet streams will be moving from East to West in the Northern Hemisphere, the differences in barometric pressure will be greater, however, the differences between cold and hot, or the poles and the equator in general, will be smaller than they are today. The human species will start to go extinct, gradually but surely. It will not be death in a bad sense, but merely a redistribution of matter. Life might arise somewhere else in the universe, just like humans have killed off species of animals, those of which are therefore extinct. New species have developed. And the hope is that it can can be the same for people, who destroy our Earth’s ecosystems and animals. My goodness! Maybe an alien civilization will make us go extinct. There will be a great renewal, and a new age will come to us. People might start sweating too much, causing an uptick in global moisture due to the warmer conditions present, therefore increasing the effect of pollution. But not only will the world end one day, but also, people’s hormones (growth & reproductive), adrenaline levels, endorphine levels, dopamine levels, serotonin levels, and other levels of chemicals will be off balance and we might even be able to teleport molecules into places such as people’s minds, drinks, etc. The world won’t be the same place anymore as it currently is. Our problems, with issues such as the denuclearization of North Korea, and Iran, will pale in comparison to what is to come. If this happened right now, it would be a curse, and I’d have the illusion that it’d help my life somehow, especially in forgetting my mostly irreversible problems. Just goes to show how much it hurts. Anyway, I think that we can expect extreme geomagnetic storms and bombardment by cosmic rays simultaneously. Auroras might appear over the equator on a daily basis for a long period of time, exciting ground currents and being a catalyst for minor quakes. I think that the Universe is electrical, or at least that’s what I’ve learned. The universe is just like the mind, the structures of dark matter resembling the internal neuronal structures of the brain. And just like the Universe, the mind can be destroyed to an indescribable extent, not just physically, but also phsychologically. Someone who has as much despair as me would like to think otherwise, that there’s hope after the devastation. Ambient music is a main catalyst for such thoughts of mine. It’s something I can’t accept, the calm and peacefullness of the world that ambient music reminds me of. I’ve been hurt by people’s perspectives about me, and the extreme critique imposed upon me by people who were supposed to help me psychologically, and those who I wish would help me with the reality of everything. My mind has been feeling like it’s been disintegrating, falling apart, while looking for some way to express my true feelings. I worry about things that others consider trivial, which try to kill me and leave me ending up in suffering. One example of such a trivial thing is that I lost friends on Facebook; The devil, or at least that’s who I tend to think about, speaks to such people, rendering me a piece of shit by people’s standards and feeling like everything would finally end. I don’t know where this is all going, but my feelings tell me that this life isn’t worth anything; it’s not worth any of the feelings that I’ve been having over the years. I just want to live pleasantly in this world, without being ditched and despised by others...

Why I have only 118 friends? I once had over 130.

What’s wrong with people? People who’ve never seen me before have swore at me, people who’ve not really known me at all, and people who I’ve never been mean to or mad at, deleting me off of Facebook?! I might never understand society. I strongly want to think that there’s a better world in existence apart from this one, a higher dimension, but that’s probably just fantasy. When I’m without forgiveness from others, I feel like I’ve lost my manhood.

Re: reporter asks Kim Jong Un

A reporter, which I assume is American as he asked in English, “Are you going to get rid of your nuclear weapons?” Kim didn’t respond. I’m pretty sure that’s a “NO”.

I'll need revenge on my part to get me through this life. Without revenge, I live unpleasantly and there’s injustice. But why won’t everyone understand?

Sony RX100 series vs Panasonic Lumix LX series; what's the best advanced compact under $600?

What’s a better value, a Sony RX100 series camera, or one of the Panasonics (LX10 & ZS100)? I did extensive research of these cameras. First let’s talk about the Sony RX100 cameras. There are currently six versions of this camera. The RX100 is probably the most bang for your buck advanced compact camera of them all. RX100 II steps it up a notch by introducing a BSI sensor, for better lowlight performance, as well as a partially articulating screen. From then on, the improvements in subsequent RX100 series cameras seem relatively slight. After the RX100 II, RX100 series cameras have featured improved exposure bracketing, more fps, as well as 4k video. The RX100 mark six, is my favorite of the RX100 cameras; at it’s long telephoto end, it’s actually not bad in terms of aperture. In this, as well as the RX100 V, you can take as many photos per second as standard cinematic video, albeit for a limited buffer time. The RX100 mk 6 has phase detect autofocus, which is considered as a great feature that might well be the deal breaker for people, despite it’s $1,200 price tag. And the RX100 mk 6 is the first of it’s series to include a lens with ED elements, meaning that the “Zeiss” brand name on the camera this time is more than merely a label, and more true to Zeiss. Now let’s switch over to the Panasonics. In my opinion, the LX10 is a better value as opposed to the ZS100; keep in mind that image quality is of utmost importance to me in a camera. That being said, the LX10 has better image quality, especially at the telephoto end, which wouldn’t be a major problem if you’re using a stopped down aperture on the ZS100. Like the much pricier RX100 VI, the LX10’s lens is comprised of ED elements, and at least one HR element, which means that you’ll notice less diffraction, or loss of sharpness, as you stop down the aperture ever farther, or if you want optimum sharpness at all focal lengths. In my opinion, the LX10 is better than the RX100 & RX100 II because of a few improvements; touch screen, 180 degree tilt screen, lens sharpness, aperture, better (more advanced) exposure bracketing, focus stacking (What?!), 5 axis O.I.S (Optical image stabilization) as well as 4k features. I actually got a chance to use 5 axis O.I.S from Panasonic before, and let me tell you, it's a great feature. About two years ago, when I bought my RX100 II, the LX10 was actually about the same value as the Sony, because the Panny cost at least $100 more. Honestly, I think that I’d pay $100 more if only my budget would allow me to. Today I’d definitely purchase one, because the price is about 1 cent less than the Sony. making it currently a better value in my opinion. However, as many are probably familiar with, no camera is perfect. And that includes the Panny, which is slightly larger than the RX100 II, and when it comes down to pocketability, even a few millimeters can make a big difference. I already think that the RX100 is too thick, however, as I have written before, having a body that’s heavier than the lens can help with image stabilization. Another thing that I don’t like about the LX10 is that the lens, when set to maximum telephoto reach, is longer than it is at all other focal lengths; I doubt that’s a problem for most people, but for me, as for photomicrography & imaging using a telescope, that is a serious problem, but I won’t go into detail as to why that is. For other types of photography, however, the LX10 might just be of better value than all Sony RX100s, although the newer RX100s are pushing the envelope. The LX10, when compared to the Sony RX100 II (but not later versions) has a better sensor characteristics, such as ISO performance, dynamic range, and color depth. I should’ve waited and kept saving up for the LX10! I kind of had the intuition to do that, but I guess I didn’t do as much research as I should’ve. So there it is, the Panasonic Lumix and Sony RX100 VI are two of my personal favorite advanced compact cameras of all, although with a $600 budget, the prize goes to Panasonic. We could argue all day about mirrorless and/or SLR cameras, which might be even better value, and their respective lenses; but this is about compact cameras in particular.

Can you identify this phenomenon?

At about 12:05, this is what I witnessed: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifIRLUzdfPo

It seems like the calm before the storm

I think that a storm’s brewing, not one that’s weather related, but there may be turmoil soon. I keep roaming the land of boredom, someone could save me like I should try and improve the situation

I think it’ll be interesting this week

The start of an interesting week. I think that there will be a major news event today besides the Trump North Korea summit. In the meanwhile, I have got to listen to that music to get me past all of these uneventful times. I haven’t been making music for some time. I think that it’s time to make some again, and start taking pictures. Don’t worry, I don’t send the photos to your friends (just remind me to forget)!

I feel like dreaming about fields and valleys. I like to picture myself there. I spend so much time in the same region that it’s making me basically crazy.

The Dawn of A New day

It’s the dawn of an interesting day, and perhaps a new way. I recently woke up, at only about 5:00 and it was already getting brighter outside. I heard Trump is supposed to meet with Kim Jong Un? Could it be?!

Just when I thought everything was alright

Reality has to hit me in the crotch again, because that’s literally how much it hurts. I had hope that I live in an acceptable part of the world. It’s total nothingness that I must live here where I’m at, in America. No matter how well I feel living in a nation where there’s a relatively high chance of becoming wealthy, and where many aspects of life are great, despite all of these benefits I can’t stand being dissed by unapologetic and unforgiving people. I want to meet up with them because they’re sensitive. If you swear at me, or attack me, you’re basically a sensitive person. The truth about life, as well as my circumstances, is trying to bring me pleasure, but people have tried to overweigh it by physically and verbally attacking me. They should all be sent away, I just don’t know where...

Some thoughts about my predictions

I’m to write that there are a few predictions in there that aren’t exactly predictions. I didn’t notice this before, I was too excited and wrote them down hastily. However, I assure you that you’ll find actual predictions on this page. http://intriguingthinker.blogspot.com/p/httpsurrealandnotable.html I’m honestly confused by some of these, what at least I considered at the time, to be premonitions about news events of the future; however, I’m somewhat skeptical I suppose. I will keep trying this (making premonitions) to investigate more as to whether it works or not. In the meanwhile, there is literally pretty much nothing for me to do; the weather’s actually boring (sunny is boring for me). I like it when there’s more exciting weather around like dramatic clouds, and lightning. My gaming system has practically broken down- you know what-as a matter of fact- FUCK SONY! I was tempted to write that because of their products. I need to get out more but I’ve gotten bored of staying in the local area. It’s horrible. I can’t actually explain it. I need to permanently move on to another place, so I can live my life somewhere else and be content.

Major Quake

today, a major quake, probably in southeast Asia. I'm going to essentially “gamble” and write that there will be an unexplained occurence today as well.

premonition week

I miss premonition week! I’d give predictions about somewhat specific events, such as a concert incident,just about each week, and they came true. I wish that the frequencies would be different so that I could “synchronize” , and be able to do so again.

CERN is supposedly causing demon’s faces to appear in the sky

>larger image I’m very glad I read such a comment; it’s very insightful and perplexingly beautiful. You don’t know about CERN? It’s the large Hadron Collider which accelerates subatomic particles. I wish I had one, so that I could create 5th dimensional holograms and other neat shit.The most I can practically do in my backyard now is to be a backyard astronomer.

Improving my public relations, or making my relationship with the public easier and more pleasant, is something I’d like to do

I can see myself some 40 years from now

I’m certain that in the far future, I’m going to look back on life and still find that it’s suffering. I’ll always notice and think about the injustice that exists between me and others. I’ll always agree, no matter what, that this life was extremely unpleasant all of the way through, and that others caused it to be like this. Unless, of course, I could reverse this situation... Those who are close to you and care about you, even though they care, they can’t help with the past. In all practicality they aren’t able to help. The joy of life is trumped by reality. That’s what I’ve learned about life. That it can far too easily be screwed up until there’s nothing you can do, and everything becomes pointless. Why is it this way? I will probably never know. And I’m not writing this because I’m a pessimist or something like that; it’s just the truth about my life experience with people who’ve impacted my life for good.

Why this is the way it is

I hate the way this life works, the way this world works, and the injustice it has caused to me by people who have been mean

This is exactly what I tried to mention

What I need, this is just that. Now the question remains, how is this HDR/HDR long exposure stuff possibly work for my camera; it’d have to override the funtions, which I’ve mentioned before however I don’t actually know now if it’s possible. BTW, found this on the web I seriously wish that my phone broke down for good so that I didn't have to take it on vacation

I was hoping that Gorilla Cam could control my Sony camera from my ipod...

I wrote so much about getting an app for controlling the functions on my Sony RX100 II via an iPod. I guess it’s not happening, at least not for some time! Makes me slightly regret somewhat getting a Sony, but hopefully I finally get around as to how to use my remote control. I was hoping that there’d be an option to countdown and after the time elapses, automatically three (or more) exposures could be taken in succesion, without me having pause in between photos and change the exposure setting myself. Somewhat dissapointing; I hope that Apple or Android comes out with such a high quality camera like mine, then it’d probably be able to do what I described. Sorry for the confusion! If only the Sony advanced remote app could work with my camera, that’d solve the issue. Makes me want to get another SLR camera.

Better to die than to face injustice

I’d rather literally die than have to live with this reality of injustice. Why does everyone else get to live fine?

What I plan on doing while on vacation

I want to maybe take my iPod with me on vacation; not just for internet, photo taking, videos, sharing, reading, or music. In fact, there’s a special app that I’d like to download which can help me obtain better imagery. It's called Gorilla Cam. Sure, my camera can already take great photos and is full of features, but nonetheless, it’s not perfect. In fact, no modern camera, no matter how expensive is perfect. So the app will enable me to essentially override the camera, and I will then be able to use functions that aren’t even available on my camera. Practically, the settings on this app can replace my camera’s settings because even though much of them are the same, they enable me to capture HDR images quicker, especially when trying to achieve long exposure. My camera has a 2 second and a 10 second timer; that’s practically it. For my requirements I need about a five second delay, or alternatively be able to take a photo with my camera remotely via iPod. Two second delay actually doesn’t always help to hamper down vibrations enough, especially when you’re zoomed in and have a high pixel count. And for making hdr images, the 10 second timer is more of a waste of time, I usually like to make HDR photos using at least three photos, which means that with a 10 second timer, I’d need to wait more than half a minute; not bad for one photo here and there, but when taking tens of them, time can add up. Sure, my camera can do exposure bracketing but without a timer, and the exposure interval when maxed out is only 0.7 EV. My camera, a Sony, is great at having good color depth and dynamic range, but the processor...not so much. Canons and Nikons seem to have better features. Canon has CHDK for their compact cameras, and Magic Lantern for the SLRs. And plenty of Panasonic cameras have 4k and focus stacking, which is missing on my Sony. The Sony A6000 is a great camera which has some of these features, but it’s not a pocketable (compact) camera. I wish that I could replace my camera today with a Panasonic. In this instance, you just have to accept what you already have, and use it to the full potential. I think that mini, compact, version of a Fuji XT100 or Olympus OM-D EM10 would be great, if it had 4k at 60p (only 15p available with the Fuji) and if it had 24 megapixels, along with an APS-C sensor. Of course, Full Frame sensors are better in some ways, but I’m not sure that it’s possible to put a Full Frame sensor into a compact camera. Also, since I’d like a zoom lens with very quick aperture, the lens would most likely be huge.

Some thoughts about the new Parrot Drone!

Parrot just released new information about a new drone that is set to be released in October. This drone looks perfect, at least for the most part; let’s investigate what I have to complain about. First of all, this drone has an impressive 21 megapixel sensor, and what sounds like a great lens, and can withstand wind up to 31 mph despite it’s relatively small size. Also, it’s foldable and features 4k video at 24p. These aspects are great, but just because some things about it are great, that doesn’t mean that it’s a perfect drone. One of the things that I don’t like is that the design isn’t as aerodynamic as other drone; the way the front is designed, when the drone goes forward, the air will pool in the front of the aircraft, increasing wind resistance, and trying to push the drone back, slowing it down. I can’t help but wonder if the HDR feature will be available using DNG files; one of the issues with HDR these days is that some cameras, such as mine, can only create in-camera HDR using Jpeg files. Overall however, this is not a perfect drone, but neither is it a bad drone. On a scale of 1-10, based on the information that’s been given so far, I’d give it a 7 to 8. Some might not consider that a very high number, although let me mention that this particular drone seems better than all of the ones before it!

Evidence shows that May was hottest in recorded history

https://thebarentsobserver.com/en/ecology/2018/06/warmest-may-ever-arctic-islands#.WxYM0_rBerR.facebook https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGPdYpwgFP0

Uh Oh!

They going to rob my house! There. You can now report me on Facebook!

Negative Concern for today

I want to repel everything that’s negative. I’m greatly worried when it comes to going on vacation anywhere; there’s still injustice left for me to deal with at home; it’s not like it was years ago, when I wasn’t hurt or mistreated yet. This could be a very bad vacation, full of bad luck. If anyone wants to be mean or angry at me, then I can tell them that I’ve been mistreated already and have an excuse to be violent. So today, I’m like in a state of limbo, but soon I’ll fall off the cliff because my emotions will push me too far, and then there’s nothing good to be said about any of this. Like I’ve already mentioned, some will never befriend me again, and will be unforgiving until my last day has passed...and they will never apologize to me. What a shame...my life ruined because of such stupid circumstances. I honestly think that I’ve been let down by people, some of who are demented when it comes to my emotional state. What I would’ve given up to reverse this situation? Everything.

When do I leave on vacation?

July 1 and be back July 8

The ultimate camera

I want a 24 megapixel cam with 60 fps, unlimited buffer, FF sensor, BSI sensor, 24-200mm/1.0, and a front end LSI. Also let’s include focus stacking and peaking, as well as 4k video @60p w/all manual controls. Make one and I’ll be interested.

Climate Relationship

I wasn't sure if it should be "Manmade Climate" together with "Natural Disasters" instead, but I decided and went with one. The Earthly climate has a natural, gentle, relationship with us humans, unlike what my personal relationship would be like.

This is where I thought about going on vacation

I thought about going here in July. I also want to visit Seattle. Initially, the trip starts in Michigan and goes to Portland, Oregon. I also thought about seeing the Columbia River Gorge, which shouldn’t take more than half a day. But instead of going to the Columbia River Gorge, I could take a gamble on time and go here, to the Cascades. I stay in Washington for about 7 days and want to see Olympic National Park, Mt Rainier, and maybe Mt Helens. Will 7 days be enough to also visit the Cascades? I was thinking about using Yahoo Answers to answer my question, but I don't get any help on returning to Yahoo.

Climate on a cosmic scale

https://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2018-06/uor-aac060418.php

The sad truth about life

Ignorance to me is the equivalent to harrassment. I experience it constantly. But unlike harassment, it never goes away.

Yahoo acting up

It’s been what seems like years, since I’ve checked my Yahoo email. That’s because I haven’t been able to get to it, despite making sure that I’ve entered the correct password. I clicked on “forgot my password”, however, that redirected me to AT&T, which gave me options to reset my password and/or email, which I tried, but hasn’t worked for me ever since. For goodness sake, I had job offers sent to me!

The best compact camera of all? I’m not impressed...

This new Sony camera that just came out...I’m not impressed. This is me ranting about the new Sony RX100 VI. Don’t get me wrong, it’s full of interesting features that for some might be a deal breaker. Unfortunately, it’s quickest aperture is only f/2.8. And macro ability is quite inferior to at least some cameras, such as the Panasonic LX10. I feel as though Sony is actually losing at this competition. The dark aperture at telephoto is somewhat dissapointing. The LX10 seems at least in some ways to be a better camera. First, the LX10 has an aperture of f/1.4. Next comes the macro ability: 3cm as opposed to Sony’s newest 8cm. So, even though the LX10 has a shorter lens, it’s just about equal to that of the RX100 VI, since both cameras’ optics include the addition of special extra low dispersion elements not found on previous RX100 versions, meaning that once you start messing around with the aperture like a crazy maniac, or use every zoom setting that you can find, you’d have a higher success rate at getting great, detailed, photos. I’m not sure why RX100 VI is priced at...$1,200. Previous versions of the RX100 line actually have features that the VI lacks, such as an ND filter. At this price point, a compact camera should indeed have extra low dispersion elements combined with some zoom, however, the sensor should at least be a micro 4/3 size. Disappointing.

A weather kind of day I suppose

Today was interesting; mostly sunny, quick moving clouds, windy at times and deep blue sky. But nothing in this world, no scenario or situation, can bring justice.

They’ll never be my friend again...

What. The. Fuck. Let's get away from this scenario! OH wait, I can’t. Makes me feel dead and not alive in this world anymore. I can’t come to terms with any of this. Unforgiveness from others is like a giant hole that swallows up my life every day. I literally feel time escaping me. Nothing essentially ever happens anymore, at least not here. No more feeling good or content, just pretending constantly that I’m not a failure, one that came about against my intentions, and without my permission, just so other people could have it “their way”.

No respite

No respite in sight. I’m essentially dwindling into nothing

They should innovate cameras

They should make a mirrorless camera with an APS-C or FF sensor, and the lens, have it be a 24-50mm/1.0. The Nikon Coolpix A was a very interesting camera, if only it had a zoom lens and more pixels, then I’d have it, despite the fact that it probably would’ve gone w/out 4k functions. It’s lens is more than twice as sharp as that on the RX100 series cameras. The lens on the Panasonic Lumix LX10 also produces photos that are somewhat more detailed than the RX100 series cameras, especially at small apertures, and I think that it’s the best value for an advanced compact as of now. It was once about $100 more expensive than the RX100 II, at the same time that both models were on sale. Now, it costs about one dollar less than the RX100 II. I enjoy the compactness of such cameras, though I think that the recent mirrorless designs such as the Fuji XT100 and Sony A series might be more preferable. The Fuji XT100 strongly resembles the old Zenit rangefinder film cameras of past days. The A7 III is probably also one of my favorites, as it does quite well in low light. Pixels are probably less important to me than other things, such as color depth, noise performance, a quick lens, feature set, frames per second, and a large buffer. The sensor size is also not as important to me than these factors. My main focus is nature photography, and astrophotography; a quick photo burst with a large buffer can be helpful in low light, at least when I’m in a hurry. Larger color depth lets me reproduce nature’s colors better, leading to better color rendition. I think that Sony is a win for color rendition in that it has greater color depth, because personally, I think I prefer color depth over color accuracy, or how colors are rendered right out of the camera. There are a few bells and whistles that are missing from my current camera. The most important aspects of a camera, in my opinion, are the ones which can’t be corrected by firmware and/or can’t be corrected by post processing. Panasonic, Olympus, Fuji, Nikon, and Sony are among my most favorite brands. There’s also Leica, except I won’t be getting one of those anytime soon. I’m disappointed that the lens on my camera, the RX100 II, isn’t a true Zeiss lens as is labeled on the camera. SLR lenses I think are in general better than compact camera lenses. I’m surprised at how sharp the 18-55 kit lens for Canons is; when stopped down, it’s excellent at wide angle, and even w/out stopping down, the lens is excellent at it’s full zoom extent. Supposedly, among the best lenses when it regards optical quality, are those used for micro 4/3rds systems.

Offensive facts?

How does the human species reach such a state in which a post about aliens and demons can be offensive?! You could have at least told me what the matter was, and I probably would’ve understood. I hate this clusterfuck of a society that I live in, which has no sense of sympathy or regret...

Music is my painkiller

except the problem is that the pain’s still there, I just don’t notice it. Slowly but surely, I’m dying in life, and everything is making it feel like a good experience. I once had several more friends than I have now. Once there was a time when I wasn’t hurt emotionally, and it’s not returning to how it was back then. I wish that I could enter an alternate reality in which all of this wasn’t true. Of all the happiness and pleasure that I experience over the years, they all amount to nothing, as the good feelings that I have are merely painkillers. The truth is literally unbearable. I wish that you could all realize that we as people “are capable of such beautiful dreams and such horrible nightmares. you feel so lost, so cut off, so alone, in all our searching, the only thing we've found that makes the emptiness bearable is each other." This quote, which I found in a piece of music from the band "We Are All Astronauts", is just about perfect and it relates to how I feel like. Until I can regain my friends, I will be cut off from happiness & pleasure; and I want it to be reversed now, or else it will continue to torment me my whole life. I’ve lost; that’s it. Maybe Someday maybe I’ll get there?...

This clusterfuck of events and deep emotions is killing me

Where did the old times go, When one was happy, pleasant, and relaxed?! I’m convinced that things aren’t turning around, some people will always be my enemies and think I’m a bitch...

Let's be serious here

After I saw this ad on my computer (and no one found out about it), people started to delete me off of Facebook! No reason to be offended, huh?

Which App for my camera?!

I've been recently wondering whether or not I should download either Triggertrap or Gorillacam App; my camera only has either 2 or 10 second timer. I've got both Android as well as iPod. I don't necessarily need more than what my camera has designed for it, it's just that with such an app, I could do more creative things regarding photography, such as, like recently discussed, long exposure HDR. So perhaps I could program the camera to take three differently exposed photos, but with only a 2 second delay, and not have to do the delay for each photo?! Or probably even better, would be to use a remote control, although I have to say, that it would be very neat if the process was more automated!

https://www.theguardian.com/environment/2018/may/31/avoiding-meat-and-dairy-is-single-biggest-way-to-reduce-your-impact-on-earth I tell you, even in a first world country such as America, cows are mistreated

Some thoughts about Long Exposure HDR photography

I have some rather interesting questions... I was researching long exposure HDR photography recently; and that got me thinking; Is it good to take one of the images, the one that's a proper exposure, using an ND filter, then take the others w/out a filter but setting the EV to the desired value? This might not make sense to everyone, since the idea or purpose of HDR and long exposure are different. I thought about it to go for creative effects. Sure, I could just take a single exposure using RAW, however, there's something about HDR software that I really like; I guess it's the way that the tone mapping works. I was thinking also that maybe manually blending exposures would resolve the issues that could arise with such photography. For example, when photographing a waterfall and I want the smooth silky effect of the water, I could take various exposures with an ND filter and then merge them, but the problem that I see is that the underexposed photo might cause the water to be blended in a way as to not render it silky smooth. I think that I might have to use some of my Photoshop skills in this instance! Or, I could just use a very strong ND filter if the sunlight is too strong, so that the short (dark) exposure will have the silky type effect to start off with. I might be in a hurry however. Anyhow, I don't want to get somewhere I want to go and have to experiment there, if someone's already tried this technique; it will save space on my memory card.

Sorry about my rants

but seriously, why do I always get the bad luck when it comes to friends?

More uneventful times ahead...

revolutionary New camera system for photography of the night sky

This is really neat. The sensor is actually cooled significantly.

Wake up to another beautiful day, but my emotions totally disagree as fuck!

Another clusterfuck, fucking bastards mess with me and I keep thinking of wanting to die.

Posting photos of yourself and looking for tattoos

You can post photos of yourself and look for tattooed individuals, yet you can’t take a decent unexplained photo! You can talk shit here and there, yet you don’t know the how of many other things...

Seriously!

It's late, and I'm depressed, please help me, I don’t want to hurt myself

I can't imagine something more beautiful than this

Nothing sounds more beautiful and shocking that this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJtDXIazrMo .

What use is it to go anywhere?!

I’ve been planning on possibly going to Tacoma, Washington this year. However, What use it for me to go on vacation anywhere, no matter how fun it’d be, if there are others that have hurt me and I can’t get over it?! I need my sanity back before I can do anything.

The secrets that I keep

My secrets don’t let me fall asleep and never let me be at ease. I can’t withstand this fucking life. Everyone around me, near me, and those who are also far, are halfwits like no one’s business. I can’t withstand it, it’s killing me. I wish that I had died a while ago from all of this, so that it would be behind me already and that I could move on with a good life. This despair, it’s never fading, it’s staying.

I'm constantly afraid

I feel like watching some foreign shows and memes, both of which I don’t understand, then falling asleep. I can’t admit all of the things that I’ve done in my life, but hopefully I have no secrets that I should tell about. It feels like that time again, to fall asleep for good. I get the impression that I’ve got a lower status in society because others are more popular, and even though they cost more, in some ways I’m even better than them. And I’m constantly afraid of this truth, which doesn’t let me sleep at all. I’m a restless person. No use returning to everyday life if it’s meant to be like this anymore.

Some more information on the swirl

Not much more data, but here’s an interesting side note: This might’ve been the closest that a tropical system has ever come to the Great Lakes; exactly 5 years ago, the largest ever recorded tornado was observed. I think that I most likely lost most of my readers because of me changing the blog address. I guess that they’re somewhere in the chaos of everyday life, never to be found again...

What can undo injustice

Someone please convince me that it’s not true, that there’s a deeper meaning to all of this, that they will be wiped off the face of the Earth... I’m lost in the world, because no one understands me!

Distractions are painful

Everything in life is a distraction! I’m constantly distracted by what’s of the most utmost importance...seems like I’ll never get where I’m supposed to be at in life, which is to get even with others and finally live in a world that's empty of injustice and unfairness. No matter how much money, how much materials, or how much happiness I were to receive right now, it would be nothing for me, as justice is all that I crave in this life, and is just what I deserve to enact.

The truth about our society, as observed from my perspective

If demons were real, they’d tell me to let go of it and find acceptance; but that’s not why I was born. I wasn’t born to accept my fate, the fate that others have put upon me!I’m seriously tempted to become an evil person, because some don’t deserve anything good in life. I don’t believe in the devil, but figuratively speaking, the “devil” is trying to meddle with, and manipulate my life. I’m not a person to believe in fairy tales, but I talk about such things for the sake of context, so that others can understand me in a way that works. There might not be a devil, but there’s something called evil, and it’s a byproduct of the human species. I wish that you could all realize this and I could get help somehow, but since I’m a piece of shit, no one will care... no matter how I feel, others’ relationships and feelings are more important than me. If needed be, many people wouldn’t hesitate to get rid of me from society for the sake of everyone else. Some of you might know what a heart break is, but I feel much worse than that, because I’ve been “heartbroken” not because of one, but because of many people. And it’s not meant to be this way, for me to live in the midst of these people. I despise this place in which I live, there’s no redemption for me. So much gets lost, and nothing returns...

A Swirl Part 2...

Just northeast of the frame is Michigan

I Seriously, just one look from me is enough to lose friends

Just the way I look is enough to make someone forget about me; It’s depressing to say the least. I suppose that I’m one of the inferior ones, and I don’t matter at all. I come off as someone who doesn’t deserve this life given to me on this world, and honestly, it makes myself want to die.

I wish that all of those people I’ve been thinking about would die, because they make me want to die (on a daily basis)...

Grudge is never going to let me go...

Everyone’s alright, except for me, who can’t and probably won’t let things go. It’s excruciating knowing this that everyone can simply go on with life, while I can’t possibly do it anymore. The grudge keeps holding me hostage for my whole life. I was always convinced for the past five years that everything in my life was alright; I was unaware; I was wrong. I must get back at people, or else I keep living in excruciating pain. We have to undo this injustice. Why so much time must go by, and probably my whole life will go by, like this?! I’m condemned by those who hold grudges against me. One like me can fantasize that there’s justice or fairness that might come some day, but that’s only a fantasy...

Photography photo formats and HDR photography

Today let’s discuss the difference between Jpeg and RAW imaging format; which one should you use? If the contrast of a scene is relatively high, then you’ll probably want to use RAW. RAW can produce approximately the same results as an HDR merged Jpeg with a range of -1 to +1 EV exposure compensations. RAW processing might seem difficult to some people, but it’s really not, unless of course you don’t have the right image processing software. These days, there are cameras that can do RAW processing in the camera. Raw files are larger than Jpeg, so if you’re trying to save internal memory space on your memory card, Jpeg isn’t a bad idea. In many situations, the difference between Jpeg and raw image quality might be difficult to notice, especially because newer, more modern cameras have better Jpeg processing techniques. In fact, some modern cameras can produce decent “HDRish” images, or images that look much like HDR, right out of camera, after processing of course, without the need to take multiple different exposures (at least when using RAW). If you know what you’re doing, then RAW is a great choice of format for photography. The only major problem that I can think of that even single RAW images have trouble figuring out, is highlight recovery; it’s much easier to recover shadow detail rather than highlight detail. That’s a major reason why I don’t overexpose much. Now, when you have a partly cloud day, and the clouds are frequently passing overhead, then we very likely have a problem, especially when doing HDR photography, as the required exposure changes accordingly to the cloud cover. Then there’s also the problem of moving subjects, such as when a breeze comes and rustles the leaves, which can really be a nuisance, especially if you have images to merge which were taken handheld. Sometimes it gets so dark outside that if you want to do HDR photos, you can’t help but use a tripod or some other steady support. RAW can’t take burst photos as quickly as Jpeg, and the buffer will likely not last as long.

A swirl, don’t you think?

I’m inferior to others...because I’m a piece of trash

I’m inferior to quiet people, to outspoken people, to introverts and extroverts, and all of the like

I despise some people on social media, and rightly so!

Dam*, why you people just ignore me like that? You think that ignorance is bliss, but ignorance is actually the evil tormenting my life as it’s directed towards me. Instead of bliss, ignorance causes lasting, excruciating, pain. Because of this, my life has been made to be nothing more than shit, at least to some people, and I’m greatly insulted. Why is there so much anger towards me?! I feel isolated and horrible to a great extent. I was hoping on doing something fun, but whatever my next step is in life, such as getting up to get something, or writing in a journal, it won’t lead to anything unless of course I do something that can lead to reversing this situation and getting into a better relationship w/people. I can’t get over it, that some people just refuse...I’m a lonely person...I was looking so eagerly on doing something that could bring me pleasure, but no matter how much pleasure or happiness that I experience now, it won’t lead to reversing my situation, which is of the most utmost importance. Seems as though everything that I do is either childish or to be condemned even by those near me. I can’t go doing anything at all, because that doesn’t lead me to getting even with everyone! Unless I can get even, I will drown in excruciating pain and won’t ever feel good or even acceptable. I wish that the situation, or the relationships that I have with people would be reversed, and that there be a sense of urgency among others, not just me, for this to come about. Ever since people have treated me this way, I’ve had nothing but miserable and unfair events happen to me; people would look down upon me as childish or innaproriate; but I think that it’s time to stop “being innapropriate”, because the only appropriate step to take next is to undo the injustice in my life. How can people do this to me?!

My photos look like shit!

My astronomy photos look like shit; the setup is shit, and so are the results. I hate this life because of all of the problems that I’m getting.

I need a way to numb my pain

Writing just isn’t the same as talking

Usually, when I talk about my problems in person, people listen. Now I’m dissed. No one gives a care about me, they just abandon me in this psychological state in which I am!

The conspiracy theory behind my blog

The notion or idea, that a lot, or only A) Communists, B)Capitalists, or C)Fascists view my blog is a misunderstanding. Why would that be so?! No matter which way this life goes, it’s absolutely unjust in every sense of the word; after they insult and mistreat me, others who have nothing to do with it attack me psychologically, and my perception towards others is warped into the horrible perception that it is. Yet no one seems to understand me. An unjust world is extremely troubling to me, and I feel that I’m being treated unjustly by a higher power (whether there is one or not), by not getting the chance to meet up with those who’ve hurt me. It’s cause for excruciating pain, and I’m constantly looked down upon, such as when people give me demented facial expressions that make me feel extremely unpleasant. I wish that all of this was averted somehow, just like my aversion to lack of justice.

Usually, my wishes would come true...

My words have no merit, no say, no significance. I’m being treated like a piece of trash constantly, and no one wants to admit it. I once had a wish, that things would improve, because usually my wishes came true, but now nothing comes true. I strongly think that this is a punishment put upon me for not obtaining fairness in my life, and not getting back at the people who’ve been punishing to me. I don’t know what to do. My life comes off as wrong, and unfair, because that’s what it is. I practically can’t do anything because I’ve got these memories stuck in my head which I can’t get rid of. It’s like being tormented, psychologically. I think that I’m being called to reverse things, but now that we have all gone our separate ways, I see no hope anywhere in sight.

I can’t just abandon those who’ve been mean to me

Someone should come and take me away from this situation, away from the suffering. Complete lack of sympathy is literally like killing me, not physically but mentally. I lose sleep just thinking about it. I don’t want to help anyone. Everything that anyone does or tells me to do is unacceptable, because I have to get my life back! I never realized before just how unjust life would be! Life is a mistake. I want to redeem things, but I’m finding that because of others’ actions, my life’s a lost cause. Another day, another year, the same old. I don’t want to be living my life in circles. Because that’s how it’s like, I keep returning to my memories and to the fact of how unfair all of this is. One like me just hopes that a time comes when things will get reversed, or improve, but it gets worse over time!

I'm going to Portland, Oregon this year!

Yes, you read that right! (I get jealous too easily.) It’s supposed to be a nice place, eh? Then I tour the state of Washington. Leave all of those fake friends behind (not that all of you are). Heh, I showed a picture to someone of myself with a fake leaf that’s actually just a native to North America and they got like offended, that it's one of those that's umm...you know...

Attempts at lunar photography using the Sony RX100 II

I tried to take my first astronomical photos using my Sony RX100 II. I used a Bushnell 900mm scope with 4.5” diameter mirror. Initially, at 20 megapixels you can already easily see that, despite using a photo that was done more than 10 seconds after the shutter was depressed, the image quality is degraded because of atmospheric turbulence. It was about 75 degrees and the air quality didn’t seem all that great, while the moon was about 26 degrees above the horizon. The totally black and white photos show what the moon looks like while using a red filter; as you can notice, there isn’t much improvement. I even did a high resolution, 79 megapixel stack. Other than that, I noticed some other interesting things: the side of the moon opposite of the shadow is significantly blurry. At the widest angle setting of the camera, 28mm, despite the fact that the moon appears smaller because it’s zoomed out, the lens appears to be sharper than it is at the longest focal range; but it’s not necessarily less sharp, but instead I’d say that there’s less contrast and so with the camera set to maximum zoom, the details appear to be less clear. For the 28mm focal length, I stopped down the aperture to f/2.8, which is just enough to produce an image without loss of sharpness. Meanwhile, for the longest focal range, I stopped down the aperture by one stop, and at that aperture the long focal length of the lens performs at it’s best. So, theoretically, you could just create a photo mosaic out of your magnified photos, but in my opinion, I’d rather do a stack @ 28mm than a mosaic of enlarged photos. I should try it out using IR photography, but that takes some investment. The best time for me to take lunar photos would be in late December or later in the winter, when atmospheric turbulence has decreased. I wonder what latitude on Earth would be best to capture such photos, since the moon’s altitude varies by latitude, and at the same time the varying climates make the equation much more complex.

Last Notice!

The new blog address will be found @ blogspotposts.blogspot.com; this notice may only up for a few hours! If undesirable people find this link, it will be changed w/out notice! I don’t tolerate someone sitting in front of a computer and laughing at my posts. Thanks for your understanding.

Is this the reason why people hate me?!

I think that I might have found the very reason for why people tend to delete me off of Facebook, and it might just make you go crazy. Everything that I write is essentially a waste of time to them, since after they get to the end of a line of text, they have to start at the left. That’s not because of me though, that’s because of how naive the English is. I’m an emotional person, so when someone leaves me without a reason, it makes me want to die. I never realized before just how bad of a person I’d come off as, and in this instance it involves people who are quite popular. I feel very bad emotions, like my status in society is going to hit rock bottom. However, I have a side of me that tells me that those are just emotions. I wish that side of me had a greater influence on me, but it’s been failing me for a while. I literally want to escape from my problems.

Stunts

As of now, I feel like eating a ghost pepper while running through fire and getting kicked in the crotch, while it’s storming, and getting pelted with paintballs. In fact, I once did see someone do something like that on Youtube, but since then I never have been able to locate the video. It’s time for me to make one!

Oh no, Climate Chaos!

Here we go again: Uh oh! A subtropical storm has started to form in the Caribbean; climate is changing! Everyone hide! It’s coming for you, so start pumping out the warm air! Start capturing as much carbon as possible and make plastic out of it! Sprinkle the arctic with dry ice! Ban vehicles if they emit greenhouse gasses! It doesn’t matter that the growing season starts off early or ends late, just make sure that the climate stops changing! Ban electronics if they emit ozone! Make sure to block more of the sun's rays from reaching Earth! Make sure that all vehicles and houses are either white or reflective! Make sure that vehicles aren't outside in the sunshine for an extended amount of time, or else they'll start to warm up, and the collective heat that builds up inside will contribute to a warming scenario! https://weather.com/storms/hurricane/news/2018-05-25-subtropical-tropical-storm-alberto-forecast-gulf-of-mexico-memorial Oh, and don't forget to manipulate the clouds to counteract climate chaos!

Why I hate reading non Arabic text

In my opinion, reading text which isn’t arabic is a waste of time. It forces you to read for a longer time than you’re supposed to. It’s like sleeping, which is in a sense a waste of time. In Arabia, they do it correctly; when you get to the end of a line, going left to right, the next line begins right and goes left. When we realize that this is the correct way of doing things?! That’s why I opt out of reading here in America. Besides, just about all books here are written in the same font style, which gets boring somehow.

List of songs that at least partially reflect my life

This is a list of songs who’s lyrics are relevant to me, and bring me pleasure, and also affect my emotions, though the second one isn't totally relevant Kygo - This Town (Lyric) ft. Sasha Sloan Ariana Grande - No Tears Left To Cry Frenship - 1000 Nights

My Secrets

I’m freaking tired of keeping my secrets anymore. I’m afraid that they go (sift) through all of my profiles, and if they find something that they don’t like, they just delete me; but those are the kinds of people that don’t deserve my friendship! I feel like someone abandoned from a peoples' ship I think that the worst has already happened; social media I’ve had questions given to me such as, “Do you want to hurt yourself or others?”, as well as other phsychological evaluations. Now that I think about it, I think that I unconsciously do have those thoughts, without even being aware of them. I’m terrified that these thoughts might become conscious and then my life become dangerous. Why have I always been treated differently than others?!

Some people just don’t get it

I’m tempted to stop communicating with most people for good; some of them are too sensitive and would want to attack me for something trivial. Then random people start to hold a grudge against me. But the same people probably wouldn’t be brave enough to admit to anything. Unfortunately, I know exactly who those people are, thanks to the fact that I don’t have quite as many friends, so they were easy to find. I’m not even going to mention them, because I hate mentioning their names. I always experienced them differently, as nice, but they turned out to be quite deceptive. People who seem perfectly normal turn on me without notice/warning, and that’s cause for concern. I’m concerned about what my future’s going to look like. I literally can't sleep at night because of this!

I'm tempted

I'm tempted so much to hurt others, who haven't done me much wrong, because of those who have done me much wrong. Again, this is how the world works, and I despise this very fact. Makes me no want to be alive. I should be able to meet those people some time so they get some sense, but I’ve no idea how. It seems as though those who’ve hurt me might be reading this post, and think about me as a stupid soulless SOB. And they might want me to become more sad, but I can’t allow that to happen.!

What it feels like writing a post

I feel better either right before or during I write a post. I realize some of what this life is really about, and I write with honesty. I think you all don't like me because you've somehow determined that I'm lying. If you could all understand life like I do, then you'd all be different.

My decisions will make me die

I feel literally horrible working nearby to home. If I need to work locally, I won’t. Driving is unbearable to me because every time it’s the same path, so I refuse. There’s a very real reason for this, but I can’t explain it, and even if I did, no one would understand. But I need to study more, so I need more money. Most likely what will happen to me is that I will die because of this mental suffering... I’ll die the piece of trash that people take me for. I don’t even need to hurt myself, because all of this will end against my intentions. We don’t know when we die, for example we could be in a car crash today. How this world works is really strange and unfair in my opinion; why do some people never contact me saying what’s wrong? Why don’t they at least tell me what I’ve done to make them mad?! I might not be tortured, but I literally feel like it.

We all end up in the same place

I think that ultimately, none of us will end up in a good place after we die. Some of us give no reason for our actions, and I’ll die of sadness.

I shouldn't have typed the wrong letter

I shouldn’t have pressed that one key on my computer. I shouldn’t have posted anything on social media. I talked to a phsychologist, but the only thing that they can do is help emotionally. I shouldn’t be talking to people, or else this might happen again. Practically no one wants to know me anymore. People are so grudgingly unforgiving, I can’t help but cry. This is a sad world and I can’t write much except the truth. I don’t want to hurt myself or have disturbing thoughts but I guess I now realize the source of these thoughts.

Is this what you people are mad at?

I walked into a shop once, and said something that I'll regret for a while. I thought afterwards that it was funny, but now I’m feeling the consequences. Is that what you people are mad at? Because that incident was definitely horrible. I should live in angst because of it, I don’t deserve to be treated well. I guess that until the end, I will be looked down upon because of something so trivial. I thought that everyone had the capacity to forget about such things! Or maybe you’re mad at me that I got attacked and called names, that I’ve been treated like a piece of trash who virtually no one wants to have anything to do with?! I guess that I’ll always have problems with the locals because of this, but perhaps that’s why I want to hang out with strangers now, and why they seem to me like family. I need some comfort. I think that it’s time to move out of my hometown and find some better people to talk to! I “regret” leaving Ohio, the people were so nice, but I couldn’t help but leave. Hopefully I can return.

My Fantasy

Who doesn’t like fantasizing? My fantasy isn’t something crazy, but more realistic. It would be that everything would return to normal, that the worst wouldn’t happen anymore, and that everyone who I know would be fine with me. There’s no time for other fantasies! I daydream about being a normal person, that I didn’t have to be concerned anymore. And that people would eventually forgive me for the slight things I might have done. I wish that I didn’t come off as crazy or strange, or as a bastard, and that people would be more tolerant towards me. That’s my fantasy, but then in a world like this, it’s just a fantasy... But as it goes, it doesn’t seem as if that’s going to happen. You don’t ever message me to tell me what’s wrong, and you couldn’t care any less but instead remove me! I thought that people were fine with me, but that’s not how it works. I got an indescribable heartbreak but you don’t realize it, and never give a fuck about it. No matter how horrible things are for me, you’re still ready to delete me at a moment’s notice, never realizing what’s going on with me.

A True Story

This isn’t a joke, this actually happens to me at times! I seen someone the other day who I considered quite attractive, but I guess she had to walk away. She wasn’t angry or anything, just everyday life made us seperate: we are never going to see each other ever again!!!! How can one resolve a heartbreak, when it’s eternal?! Of all of the strangers who I’ve had to practically abandon, it felt like abandoning family members, but I still don’t give up! I think that I need to get some serious support. I’m affected emotionally by this; I can’t go to sleep because of the implications of seeing someone once, then never again communicating with them, such as when I mentioned, for instance, someone attractive. It makes me think that the worst is going to come true! Let’s all hope that there’s a meaning behind this abandonment, and that we’ll get shown why it must be this way, and how this will be reversed. Life makes me feel as though I’m suffering, but feelings are far harsher than reality. I must go and sleep now, but let’s hope for the best.

What’s going on with them Germans?!

Why are so many Germans viewing my blog?! I’d really like to visit my viewers; It’s nice to do what’s meant to be done!

They’re going to do it again...

I wish that there was somehow that I could be saved, that I could get help for myself, because I’m tempted to do dangerous things because of the way people behave to me. I guess they’ll do it again, and they will indirectly be responsible! Some people would kill me if they knew that I accidentally clicked on a wrong link on a computer, whether it be in school or my own, or if I selected too many words!

I often feel sad and abandoned

Until now, I was alright having virtually no one to hang around with; but now, I’m really sad!

Maybe there's a place called forgiveness, and maybe someday we'll get there

You never say anything to me, never message me, never forgive me, never apologize, yet despite all of this, you still delete me... You make me look like a bastard, and probably sit there laughing. I bet more will delete me because of this post, or because I wrote a trivial post... I keep thinking that there's a place for me called forgiveness, that maybe some day I'll get there... For years I’ve been hoping people would forgive me, and not leave me. But now I realize that life is an ocean, and forgiveness is the shore, which can’t be seen and can’t be reached. Quit leaving me, and realize that I honestly feel this way; these really are my emotions!

When's the world going to change?

I’ve got no idea what the source of my problems is, but I want the world to know that it’s so trivial, and since people don’t want to change because of it, I’m tempted to make a photo of myself at the shore or somewhere sad, and have it say, “Forgiveness from others is like the other shore; it can’t be seen, and may never be reached”. As I sit here, hurting, I think about the nonexistence of people’s forgiveness towards me. As I’m tempted to death to hurt myself, I remember that there might be a place called forgiveness, which I can call home... that's when I can go to sleep

I’m a sad person...

In my fantasy, someone will forgive me, or apologize to me...

And so the darkness begins

Where are the good people?

This place is full of people who enjoy sex, drugs, and rock and roll, and yet they aren’t vegetarian. They probably also have some truly horrible intentions that go unnoticed. I feel like many people who I know have horrible intentions. And I’m serious! I can’t help but ask, “where are the good people at?” Perhaps someday I will find them? And then my life will change for the better, and there will be relief.

Back in the 60's or 70's...

While in Germany, dad, who didn’t sympathize with fascists, drove well over the speed limit to get to the airport. Luckily, he didn’t get to talk to any of those Germans who are mean to foreign people. Additionally, his cousin had talked to me after that incident. He went on a visit to France and met another guy of the same nationality as his, then he offered the guy a coffee at the airport. The guy was surprised, saying “A Polish guy offering coffee?!”. Next thing you know, one of them told me casually, “Look at me”. By the way, despite this being true, I want also let you know that this is my attempt at making a joke. Message me if you get it.

Excessive indulgence

I feel as if what’s going on to me isn’t fair; so much so that I’m terrified when I think about what’s happening. There never really was such a thing, or time, known as the “good times”; that was just an illusion, and people manipulated the phrase to make it describe what’s not supposed to be inherent to goodness. In honesty, eithics should come before health. So stop fooling around. I also think it’s unethical, or at least immoral, to engage in indulgence, especially when it’s excessive. Making love to people generally doesn’t meet such criteria, as despite being healthy, it’s unethical. We indulge in just about everything that we come across; for example, sweets, electronics, entertainment, and in some situations even violence. I’ve been tempted to the extreme to do all of these but somehow I make it without indulging. But start living in a world w/out these luxuries, and you will essentially not survive. I doubt that it’s alright to pursue more happiness or pleasure from things as is necessary. We indulge. but do we ever learn that, after examining ourselves deep within, we don’t necessarily deserve it? Before I decide about seeking any form of pleasure, I’m certainly aware of how unethical people are in general. For example, strict parents or family enforcing unnecessary rules. A more specific example is when parents are too strict and enforce religion even on adults, thereby taking away their freedom. Atheists and Religious folks are both wrong in my opinion, because to be a “perfect” person, you should take advice from each party. Each party has its own benefits, and I strive to live a balanced life. I realize that if there were times in life when I sought excessive pleasure that there was always what seemed like a “presence” telling me to think more often, and better. Life isn’t simply about pleasure; it’s also about what’s unpleasant. We enjoy thinking about pleasure, but in the end, we aren’t ready for unpleasant moments, and while we might be good at having pleasure or happiness, we refuse to think about how much we really deserve it. Why did we come to a world like this?! We should’t tolerate anyone who’s unethical, because they have pretty much all that they want.

The best

Selena Gomez, Ariana Grande, Camila Cabello, Demi Lovato, & Taylor Swift are the best! Demi Lovato is among the prettiest women of all time. Imagine Dragons and Kygo are some of the best male artists/bands. These musicians remind us that, despite the all of the ugly, wretched music of the modern time, music has become great again. We no longer should say that “modern music is worse than old music”.

Some of my ex friends would probably betray me.

I now realize that life is nothing more than a story. It ultimately means nothing, because I’m nothing more than a piece of trash to people. Everything, it’s all just trivial. At least some people want to treat me like I’m nothing and that I should be forgotten forever, never getting to know me and not having a sensible reason for doing so. If they could, they’d probably betray me. It's quite strange, to say the least. I don't know who to talk to about this. I guess I'll always be alone, because eventually you will all leave (delete) me, but I'm aware that there are benefits of having nothing to do with others, and so am looking forward!

If I keep going out of the house, then eventually I may have no friends left! I hate the way the world works.

Better to die in suffering than to cater to people

People really are motherfuckers! I wish I was the only one left on this Earth, at which point I wouldn’t mind starving or dehydrating to death, because that’s how much I want people out of my life. And you know, you’re probably thinking that I’m writing this not literally, or that I’m just exaggerating, which isn’t true. If you think that I’m just a piece of trash, then I’d rather be left without you. I’ve had too many people be bastards to me to think otherwise. When someone leaves me online, I can only imagine how much despair they’d cause me in real life. If people really are like this, then if I had the choice, I wish that I was the only person left alone on this world, despite the consequences that would follow. It’s pretty much either everyone or no one.

I was attacked in my dream last night. The guy who attacked me was huge and walked away because some guy with a sword came out of his car and started yelling at him. That’s when I had to make a tough decision: Do I attack and risk getting attacked again, or do I save him? The guy with the sword eventually got him to fall on the ground, after which he didn’t know what to do. He eventually slashed him and I thought that maybe things were over. So with him on the ground, us two walked toward a nearby mall, where we arrived next to a restaurant. The guy who initially attacked me got up and started walking to me. I tried to tell people to call the cops but no one would do it, and there was a huge waiting line so I couldn’t just tell the employees. The person who had the sword had given it to me, but I found that it was now wrapped in packing paper. I found a knife and struggled to tear the paper, and that’s when it all ended.

HDR photography in the Cuhyahoga Valley

Hyperrealism from Ohio. Cuyahoga National Park. The Cliffs are well worth the hike to get there, and I liked the waterfall but unfortunately with a photo of it head on from the trail, a bridge can be seen in the background, which is quite frustrating. For some of my photos of the cliffs, I forgot to adjust the formatting of the photos, ending up with only Jpegs for those photos, resulting in decrease image quality; go figure! I really like the Cuyahoga Valley National Park in Ohio. However, it does have it’s downside, and it’s a pretty huge one. Approximately 95% of the park is totally boring. The places that aren’t are quite nice, but the park is basically difficult to stay in becuase of it’s geography; if you want to get from one place to another, you might have to actually get out of the park.