Tuesday, October 31, 2017
Heat Wave To Make Itself Known In Southern Michigan This Week
It Might Be The First Recorded 90 Degree November Day In This Place!
As a heat wave will make it's way over the country, Dallas Texas may see it's first 90 degree day on record for November
Monday, October 30, 2017
Life gets better with technology?
In figurative terms, we are taking mountains and making them into hills. We make them that way by using technology. In this terminology, the mountains or hills are challenges that we face in life. They are essentially obstacles. But look, we don't have to make hills from mountains, even if we're talking about the problems that plague our life. In the past, there were many more mountains, but now we find ourselves in a world that is more flat. What do I mean exactly? I'm trying to get the point across that we are relying on technology to make our lives go easier. And taller problems might be more difficult to conquer, but at the end of the day, does it really matter how tall our problems are? After all, it is more rewarding to conquer a mountain than it is a hill, is it not? This is the logic that I'm trying to get across; bigger problems that we could otherwise not have solved using technology would potentially lead to a life that's more rewarding! At times, I wonder what it would have been like to live in the distant past; more primitive methods to overcoming life's issues, but once an issue is solved, you might very well gain more satisfaction than what you would gain had you solved the problem using technology. Why must we strive so much to gain satisfaction this way? Is time and/or the financial aspect of life really that important? Why do we seem to be losing our roots in the more primitive world, or lifestyle? Why do we as a society seem to obsessed over technology to such a high level of degree? These kinds of questions are downright mind boggling to me. I want to return to the old way of doing things also because it brings some interesting change to this life of mine.
Photography & Technology, (Including Insight Into how we live)
In this post, I'd like to send a message to camera manufacturers. And that message would be that we need to move away from pixels; megapixels, that is. It's about that time. Today's cameras have what I, as well as many others, would consider a very significant number of megapixels, enough for photography, at least in general. Do we really need more than forty something megapixels? I'm amazed by the newest generation of cameras, my favorites being between the $1,000 and $2,000 range, although there are arguably better camera and lens combinations that cost far more. I put emphasis mostly on image quality, so that's what I look for most in digital cameras, as well as how well the colors are reproduced. When it comes to colors, I want the most vibrant colors possible. But instead of color vibrancy, it seems that modern cameras are judged by color accuracy or color rendition. Yet another factor that I think about, although it comes second in importance after color, is dynamic range; this is how well a camera can capture details at the extremes of light and dark areas of a photo. I think that modern camera manufacturers should focus not on megapixels anymore, but instead focus more on dynamic range as well as color accuracy and vibrance. Who knows, perhaps one day will come when we won't need Photoshop for basic photo enhancements, because those processes will be replaced by in-camera post processing? That would be truly neat in my opinion. And it would also be really neat, as I said, to shift the focus from the megapixel race (camera companies competing for who has the most megapixels for their cameras) to be more concerned with color and DR. The camera company Canon has gotten a slightly bad reputation at least from some for not having as good of a color rendition as Sony, although keep in mind that unless you are too critical of color, then you might not notice any difference. Computational photography might be the answer here in a moment (and by moment I mean a few years or more). Computational photography is a fascinating endeavor and to apply this to traditional professional digital cameras would be as good as a paradigm shift. B&H Photo would agree with this, if you agree with what they wrote in their most recent edition of their seasonal magazine. And I think (it actually seems that) more people are starting to agree with this idea. What do you think? Should we transition into computational photography, or should photography be kept as it is? Do you like the fact that technology and programs are making it easier to obtain higher image quality, or do you prefer photography to be more challenging, and therefore, maybe more rewarding? I enjoy when photography is challenging, albeit not when I have a limited amount of time.
Apart from this, think about how this logic can also relate to life. Do we need to find more time for ourselves to make life more challenging and yet more rewarding, or should we rely more on technology to make life easier? Or maybe we can't exactly decide, and we should maybe find a balance between technology, and doing things the "old fashioned way"? Don't think that this post is necessarily just about photography; this can also have to do with the way we live in general with technology. When I spend too much time with modern technology myself, I find myself (surprisingly or unsurprisingly) yearning for more time away from it. And there have been times in my life when, interestingly enough, I've wanted things to return to how they were in the old times; Not that the old days were easier, but because things were done differently. I think that many people could relate to how I'm feeling when I think to myself, that I want things to be done differently now, despite the fact that this might make life more difficult; yes, life might be difficult, however, that might very well translate into a life that's more rewarding. After all, overcoming more difficult endeavors sounds more enjoyable to me than constantly overcoming endeavors that are made to be easy thanks to technology. Why do we put so much emphasis, or importance, into making life more productive over making it more enjoyable?
Apart from this, think about how this logic can also relate to life. Do we need to find more time for ourselves to make life more challenging and yet more rewarding, or should we rely more on technology to make life easier? Or maybe we can't exactly decide, and we should maybe find a balance between technology, and doing things the "old fashioned way"? Don't think that this post is necessarily just about photography; this can also have to do with the way we live in general with technology. When I spend too much time with modern technology myself, I find myself (surprisingly or unsurprisingly) yearning for more time away from it. And there have been times in my life when, interestingly enough, I've wanted things to return to how they were in the old times; Not that the old days were easier, but because things were done differently. I think that many people could relate to how I'm feeling when I think to myself, that I want things to be done differently now, despite the fact that this might make life more difficult; yes, life might be difficult, however, that might very well translate into a life that's more rewarding. After all, overcoming more difficult endeavors sounds more enjoyable to me than constantly overcoming endeavors that are made to be easy thanks to technology. Why do we put so much emphasis, or importance, into making life more productive over making it more enjoyable?
The world that should've been
First of all, this is a basic post. The last five or so years have been anything but good, anything but full of contentment. Yes, that's right, I haven't even known about contentment over the past few years. I have been in extreme anguish and despair and everything went out of control. Ever since, it's been like pain, except that it's not physical but psychological, or mental, pain. I couldn't be at all in college or at work, and my life, even today, is falling apart. I've had what I would best describe as nightmares, except that they happened during the day and they were more like thoughts although at the same time, they were more than thoughts; they were actual feelings, psychological feelings, that literally manifested themselves into what I describe as physical feeling. Yes, it was just like pain. In fact, I can't even control myself just thinking about them. I still fear the worst happening to me, which was extremely frequent in the past and is still ongoing. I frequently can't think of any of this as true, despite it being true. The nature of reality affects me deeply. It causes me immense physical and psychological pain, which I wish there was a way to control. I take medicines which I don't need and have been labeled as being either mentally unstable or depressed, none of which are true. As insane as this will sound, I wish that our society would focus less on society in general, and more on me. I feel abandoned because while our entire society is being concerned for, I feel like I'm being treated unfairly. And there is sadness as a result. Compare this to poor people, but this isn't about finances or economics, but instead this is about feeling well. I despise life and everything that comes with it. I still am what I originally was, and that is one hundred percent sane. There isn't even a slight hint of anything abnormal going on with me. Instead, my depression is a made-up byproduct of people's carelessness and indescribable nature towards me. Where have the times gone?! Once there was a world that was normal but I don't want to be in it no more. I wish that there was a way out so that I didn't suffer these permanent feelings that aren't showing any signs of receding in my lifetime. I feel like a lifetime of wasted time and it makes me feel condemned. I want to start over and begin a new life, but that would juts mean making my current life different life, never being able to get a new blank slate. 😢
The World That Should Be
This is basically about the world that should be, not the world as it is. Just know that this is a basic post. With this in mind, let's proceed. The world should be virgin. Yes, that's right, the world ought to be virgin. We don't need all of this religious stuff that's going on, and it comes from all sides, no matter what religion people are from. We don't need it, it's bullshit. And when I write that the world needs to be virgin, what I'm trying to get across is that the world shouldn't be tainted by any ideology. And for the record, let's make sure that the world is less about society, and more about the individual; I write this, as it is inspired by my own life struggles. So,don't express hatred towards an individual just because he or she might be different from the rest of society. I would probably be considered different from much of society, because I'm sensitive and am literally psychologically torn in every sense. I consider myself horribly maltreated when it has to do with my psychology. I'm a poor guy in that sense. Yet there are sporadic intervals during which I gain some slight wisdom despite everything! Yes, that's right, wisdom! Am I right? Getting back to ideology, I think that there are religious ideas that threaten us, that only intimidate us as society. They cause us more harm than good. That's what I've learned from listening to the religious ideas of the day. And ideologies are like cliffs; get away unscathed, and you can take great happiness from your feat. However, do it wrong and you could literally get killed. The same kind of goes with religious stuff, because in a way, religious stuff seems to me to be too critical to allow for a simple yet content life. The world that should've been is also of interest.
What I Want To Do
I want to get a Sony Alpha A7r III and take photos such as these: https://www.flickr.com/photos/86954319@N04/
Wasn't able to get any good pictures!
I wasn't able to get pretty much any good pictures this season, thanks to the fact that the leaves started falling from the trees before they turned most colorful! I remember it was once different.
Saturday, October 28, 2017
What will we learn this week?
What will we learn this week? What new information will come about, and/or come our way?! That's a perplexing question, isn't it? Well, that's a question that I'm asking myself right now, because I'm essentially drying out; my mind is essentially drying out, not due to a lack of water, but because of a lack of information and knowledge! Tell me something new already. Let's discuss the theory of consciousness, and what happens to consciousness after death.
Consciousness is an extremely perplexing aspect of life. However, have you ever pondered the possibility that there is life after death? From a scientific perspective, this kind of notion might seem silly, at least initially. However, the question remains, and what happens to time after we die?
Does it go by extremely slow, as it does in deep sleep? No; in fact, time during death doesn't even exist to us! By the time that we become conscious again (somehow), to us it will seem as though no time has gone by. I personally think that there is a possibility for consciousness to arise after death. You see, as far as we know, there's no limit to the continuation of time. Keeping that in mind, we can probably safely conclude that time will bring upon itself every possible outcome. So what does that tell us about our life? Consciousness is brought upon the mind by the way that particles are arranged; after some amount of time, probably many trillions of years or more, the same particles will recombine into the same arrangement which they were in previously, when they made up someone's consciousness in the past. Interestingly enough though, the new arrangement that results will most likely (is far more than 99% likely) to reassemble into a combination that's made up of trillions of foreign molecules. That means that a new consciousness will most likely not entirely be yours, and also it will, more likely than not, be rearranged in a pattern that isn't the same as what it was previously. If we were to unravel this topic more and more, we would eventually discover that consciousness could actually be essentially evolving with time. Basically, different consciousness's could arise from the original consciousness, given that enough time passes by! With each new consciousness, perhaps the consciousness changes somehow, although it would likely be caused by genetics instead of some magical force or "higher dimension"... If you have gained any fresh insight after reading this post, please send me a message on social media.
Consciousness is an extremely perplexing aspect of life. However, have you ever pondered the possibility that there is life after death? From a scientific perspective, this kind of notion might seem silly, at least initially. However, the question remains, and what happens to time after we die?
Does it go by extremely slow, as it does in deep sleep? No; in fact, time during death doesn't even exist to us! By the time that we become conscious again (somehow), to us it will seem as though no time has gone by. I personally think that there is a possibility for consciousness to arise after death. You see, as far as we know, there's no limit to the continuation of time. Keeping that in mind, we can probably safely conclude that time will bring upon itself every possible outcome. So what does that tell us about our life? Consciousness is brought upon the mind by the way that particles are arranged; after some amount of time, probably many trillions of years or more, the same particles will recombine into the same arrangement which they were in previously, when they made up someone's consciousness in the past. Interestingly enough though, the new arrangement that results will most likely (is far more than 99% likely) to reassemble into a combination that's made up of trillions of foreign molecules. That means that a new consciousness will most likely not entirely be yours, and also it will, more likely than not, be rearranged in a pattern that isn't the same as what it was previously. If we were to unravel this topic more and more, we would eventually discover that consciousness could actually be essentially evolving with time. Basically, different consciousness's could arise from the original consciousness, given that enough time passes by! With each new consciousness, perhaps the consciousness changes somehow, although it would likely be caused by genetics instead of some magical force or "higher dimension"... If you have gained any fresh insight after reading this post, please send me a message on social media.
Life Isn't Acceptable
Life simply isn't acceptable. What else is there? It's unfair to the point of being indescribable!
Things That I Want
Here's a list of things that I want.
DJI Phantom Pro 4
Olympus OMD EM 1 II
Sony Alpha A7r III
Nikon D850
DJI Phantom Pro 4
Olympus OMD EM 1 II
Sony Alpha A7r III
Nikon D850
Friday, October 27, 2017
Dark Days Ahead...
There are dark days coming our way, as October gradually gives way to November. I tried to take some photos of the leaves in my backyard, but it doesn't seem like their at their peak fall colors yet! That's strange, because it disagrees with the weather channel; according the weather channel, the autumn leaf colors are already at their peak even much further south than where I live. Does anyone know if the laves are colorful at McNamara Landing near Birchfield? Maybe there's a slight chance, although very few chances, of getting some nice photos over there.
Thursday, October 26, 2017
Smartphones are gaining ground, but...
Smartphones might be gaining ground in terms of image quality, and as they are rapidly overtaking compact cameras, the real question is, are these following cameras enough to disrupt or totally overwhelm the competition, and aren't somehow susceptible to the cameraphone? https://www.dpreview.com/products/nikon/slrs/nikon_d850
https://www.dpreview.com/products/sony/slrs/sony_a7riii
https://www.dpreview.com/products/sony/slrs/sony_a7riii
The camera that I Want (updated)
Modern camera wish list:
- Exposure bracketing using more than 3 photos
- Manual focus and aperture ring
- 8k @ 480 fps RAW
- At least 17 stops of dynamic range
- ISO 4 million
- Built in 13 stop, 9 stop, and 5 stop ND filter
- Minimum shutter speed of 1/250,000 second
- Bulb mode that shows how much time has passed and can do in increments of 1/10th of a second!
- LCD can be turned off during long exposure
- EVF and OVF
- Interchangeable lenses yet compact design (as in micro 4/3 or smaller)- is it possible?
- Revolving lens changer with a variety of prime lenses built in
- Medium Format sensor in compact design
- 180 degree articulated touch screen with option to turn touch off
- HDR using RAW
- Touch screen that can be turned off
- Camcorder-like flip screen
- Don't know about resolution; maybe like 39 megapixels
Wednesday, October 25, 2017
Cyclonic system to affect the next cold front that comes to US
There is currently a massive cyclone rumbling between the US and Russia, and is influencing the next cold front, because it is effecting the jet stream! Astounding, is it not? http://mashable.com/2017/10/24/former-super-typhoon-prowls-bering-sea-hurricane-winds/
Tuesday, October 24, 2017
The Suffering Of Life
I have come to the conclusion that life is suffering. I've experienced more wrong than I can chew, and it's literally killing me, not physically, but mentally. So have for me some sympathy. I've been to a state of mind deeper than depression, and am still in that state. It's absolutely indescribable. I'm never getting out. I should've done something for me to be forsaken like this, although the truth is that I didn't do anything wrong. That's why life is unfair, and ultimately, I cannot accept life for what it is. It's unacceptable. I cannot live like this.
Monday, October 23, 2017
A ritual of good luck
A ritual of good luck consists of chanting Swedish words and making your own symbols!
CERN Physicists Conclude The Universe Shouldn't Exist
I agree with them, the universe shouldn't exist http://www.thespaceacademy.org/2017/10/universe-shouldnt-exist-cern-physicists.html as in, literally shouldn't exist
Unacceptable
This is unacceptable. Life is unacceptable. I want to forget about my life and just escape from it. Something indescribable is happening to me and the only way for it to be stopped is if this all ends. I feel like I've been kicked in the crotch but with the exception that my pain is psychological and that it stays with me until I die. I despise this life of mine. it shouldn't exist.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
62 Degrees F on January in Alaska!
https://www.ncdc.noaa.gov/sotc/national/2014/1/supplemental/page-5/ earlier meanwhile, January in alaska has seen 57 degrees! https://www.climate.gov/news-features/event-tracker/%E2%80%9Cwinter%E2%80%9D-alaska what weather anomalies will we see this year, and next year?!
Saturday, October 21, 2017
Stunning AI Breakthrough takes us closer to the singularity
Wow, this is very interesting. We're going towards a singularity?! https://gizmodo.com/stunning-ai-breakthrough-takes-us-one-step-closer-to-th-1819650084?
Scientists supposedly say that...
Scientists supposedly say that conspiracy theorists have a cognitive problem that could affect all of us
https://www.inverse.com/article/37463-conspiracy-beliefs-illusory-pattern-perceptionThe Mind's Delete Button
The brain's got a delete button, and is like a garden! https://www.fastcompany.com/3059634/your-brain-has-a-delete-button-heres-how-to-use-it? I could use a delete button for reality.
Waiting For First Snow
Do you know that experience, when you wake up in the morning, and you see the first snowfall of the year, when it's not daytime snowing yet, but there's snow on the ground in the morning for about 30 minutes or so...? I'm awaiting that moment, and look, we're getting closer and slowly working our way to that moment! One of these nights I'll be outside and it'll start to snow!
Thursday, October 19, 2017
Hurry Up!
Won't Autumn just hurry the fuck up and be over already?! Seriously, We're still stuck in October, just hurry up and let the good times come along!
Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Something major happen in the news today
Something major happen in the news today 10/18/2017. I think it'll be a car accident.
Unnecessary anger towards me
We are only so smart. We fail to realize why we're alive. And I think that's a major reason for why people are so indescribably angry. A deep, indescribable hatred is dwelling among people, and that hatred is directed towards me specifically. I know that it's going to sound crazy, however, this is something that I can tell without actually interacting with others. It's a sixth sense. We, including me, are in a sense so stupid though. We are like dogs wondering about the universe. Maybe we think that anger will solve a riddle. I don't know what will solve the riddle, but apparently not anger or anything of that nature. Yet we act so stupidly. We practice ignorance, which is just not right. When does the world change? When will the world shift and something new come about? I wish all of this would come to an end.
Life is suffering
I'm deeply troubled by hate that people practice towards me. It comes from people in general. Makes me think of myself as horrible, that I've been horrible to deserve all of this. I conclude that life is suffering. Ever since I was innocent, I've been treated with anger and fury. So much so that I've been in despair and anguish, and have concluded that once again, life is suffering. I'm permanently harmed. When you realize that life could actually be different, you fall past depression and into something worse. That's me, I feel indescribable. I've bypassed depression and gone straight to something indescribable.
Why I don't think of this as real
Why do I think that life isn't real? I think that life and the world as a society is deeply troubling. Everyone seems to be vile to me. And other than that, the world is deeply troubling.
People that I know are troubling and instill in me a deep anguish that has hurt me for life.
I Don't Think This Is Real
I don't think this is real. Life doesn't seem to be real. I mean, it's realistic, everything seems real, but I can't come to terms that it's real. It must be a dream.
Monday, October 16, 2017
Is This Why Strange Stuff Happen On Facebook?
Is this why Taron, a facebook user, appeared on my ad of my own website, why strange symbols appeared on my profile, etc.? http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/gadgets-and-tech/news/krack-wifi-wpa-2-free-network-internet-device-android-ios-iphone-phone-safety-privacy-security-a8002731.html
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No More Writing?
No more writing in this blog? Due to increasing intolerance, and deleted posts, I think I might stop writing for good. I was hoping that writing would make things better but it doesn't change things even slightly.
RE: The ritual of late, 2017?
What's it about? Well, it's about late 2017. Late 2017 is an interesting time but the story is a reflection of things to come, which will be trippy.
My Dream Of The Day
I meet an attractive entrepreneur who's an artist. By the way, why must I be in hiding? We exchange some information with each other, then I'm off on a bus. Wait, what?! A bus? Yeah, I don't know either. But anyways, as I'm on this bus it's late evening, about 7 PM and some people start a conversation with me, and I tell them that I'm concerned about tomorrow. Why? Because I think, for some inexplicable reason which goes beyond me, that I've got to wake up early tomorrow to go to school. I get a sixth sense at that moment that something is wrong with my mind. The guy in the bus replies to me: "Kids have days off Tuesday." WTF? It's Wednesday, oh wait, no that would be the next day. Hah! I then ask him, once he's done with his question, whether I should go back and make friends with the entrepreneur. Now, the entrepreneur met me at my aunt and uncle's house, but they were away so I'm assuming that they sold the house to her (Aliens, man...). Why in the world was she in hiding? What were her plans? She hid under the sheets as I was on the bus and even though I had some sense in me, I couldn't make sense of quite everything that was happening. And why the fuck is there knocking on my window at night while writing this? Clearly, I'm not dreaming anymore. (I'm serious)!
Sunday, October 15, 2017
The Ritual Of Late, 2017
Aliens are demons. Extraterrestrials are disguised as extra dimensional beings. In 2018 a meteor falls in the United States and inexplicable events occur in Asia. Don't talk to or look at the occult. I heard something about 666. Don't get overrun by the media. The media is like the Earth, so immense with information that if you take enough Ayahuasca, you can start to see the curvature. People who are open minded will be more able to see what is invisible to others. Make sure not to engage in rituals. Frozen acid is used before a ritual is done, so please avoid rituals. The ultimate wisdom will come from deep within and the extreme feelings that are deep within will be redeemed in the afterlife. Happiness and all that is great cannot be redeemed on Earth, because you can't get anything redeemed in the span of a lifetime. Micro particles and substrates effect the formation of ice crystals in various temperatures throughout the cold season. Don't throw away trash during snowfall, instead burn the trash. Dark snowfall is a good sign during the spring. Time is a manmade construct. Autumn and winter of 2017 will see immense temperature differences, with a clash of both extreme cold and anomalous warmth. It will be a magical time of year, and a magical time to be alive. If the weather is just right, it will be safe to perform rituals, as many factors may come together and influence a brighter future.
Saturday, October 14, 2017
I can't think of this as true
I can't think of this as true. This life is not something that anyone should think of as real. This must be a dream.
Rituals?
Rituals, are they authentic? Rituals have appeared online, to which the end is the supposed presence of a being such as a ghost. These rituals are probably fake. Want a real ritual? Try making one of your own, even though we don't actually know what combination works. Rituals can help over time, gradually connect you with others if others also participate in the rituals and if you and/or the others strongly think that the rituals will work. They can lead to coincidences and good luck! You know? Since I've heard about supposed "ghost summoning" rituals online, I've been compelled to try my own, but to no avail. However, I have a strong feeling, a sixth sense, that specific types of rituals an help you in developing invisible connections among other people, or maybe even something else such as events or coincidences (in the sense that you might obtain some true good luck). Try teleconnections; teleconnections among people are not an area of widely studied phenomena, however, their could be more than meets the eye. Teleconnections on a grander scale, are backed up by science, however. These kinds of rituals, which don't have anything to do with other "Beings", should be good and are meant to essentially project consciousness over space time. If you could have magnetic crystals in your mind to connect yourself with the magnetic fields of the Earth and/or connect to others, then rituals might be able to make new connections!
Friday, October 13, 2017
Thursday, October 12, 2017
Funny Facebook Intro. Be inexplicable and don't sweat the small stuff
Gotta love it!
The Camera That I Want
Modern camera wish list:
- Exposure bracketing using more than 3 photos
- Manual focus and aperture ring
- 8k @ 480 fps RAW
- At least 17 stops of dynamic range
- ISO 4 million
- Built in 13 stop, 9 stop, and 5 stop ND filter
- Minimum shutter speed of 1/250,000 second
- Bulb mode that shows how much time has passed and can do in increments of 1/10th of a second!
- LCD can be turned off during long exposure
- EVF and OVF
- Interchangeable lenses yet compact design (as in micro 4/3 or smaller)- is it possible?
- Revolving lens changer with a variety of prime lenses built in
- Medium Format sensor in compact design
- 180 degree articulated touch screen with option to turn touch off
- HDR using RAW
- Touch screen that can be turned off
Don't Let Me
Don't let me dwell in boredom, and don't let me dwell anguish and despair. What to do this week?
Contentment
Using a book to lower internet bill! https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/zm3da5/i-used-sun-tzus-the-art-of-war-to-lower-my-internet-bill?utm_source=vicefbus
Strengthening Hurricane Going Towards Europe?
A major storm may impact England, Spain, and/or Ireland. https://www.wunderground.com/hurricane/atlantic/2017/hurricane-ophelia Such a phenomena hasn't happened in quite a while.
Quit Being A Snitch
Quit being a snitch! Just don't talk about my blog in a bad light, because you don't understand. If you were me, you'd be writing the same, so don't be a snitch!
I might not be "totally sane" but I know what I'm talking about
I might not be "totally sane" but I know what I'm talking aboutWednesday, October 11, 2017
Some Thoughts About Life On Earth
Here's my thought about our life on Earth. I think that we only visitors, and that we only stay here for a very limited amount of time. I think that we as people are too overly critical and that has a very negative influence on me. I've been ravaged psychologically to what seems like the point of no return. I'm far too sensitive to boredom, which comes as a result of mundanity. No matter where I find myself, it's not good, for I must have change in my life. I hate waking up everyday to the same stuff, even if I were living in a luxurious mansion or hotel. I feel like whatever is mundane is causing me loss of time and that that time which is being lost could have been filled up with what's actually important. What a realization, isn't it? Well, what else? I've just written about eight paragraphs of this post, only to see it get removed. Anyway, the essence of existence, that's what it was about. Life itself, with regards to how my life has ended up until now, is not inherently fair. And therefore, life is not inherently acceptable. This is based off of my own life. Who knows, it might as well apply to your life as well. Please listen to all that I've written so far, because I've gained quite a lot of wisdom. I've been suffering psychologically. Essentially, and literally, I think that there is a framework, or blueprint, that exists in my mind. The essence of my personal existence has been to live according to this framework, since this framework has done nothing except to greatly benefit me and bring me a seemingly infinite amount of happiness. But it seems as though this blueprint, this plan if you will, hasn't been keeping up with how my life has been going; somewhere along the line, things have gone totally awry. And I've paid the price for it by suffering immensely. As a result, I might be viewed as insane or mentally unstable, although I assure you that that's not how it is at all. Maybe it is the other way around, but either way is bad anyways. I feel as though I've literally lost time in life. And I can't redeem time; it's not as though I'll get back time. The time that I've lost could've brought me unending happiness and all that is great. But instead, I'll be haunted by this for as long as I live. And that's quite a realization, isn't it? I literally feel as though once I lived in a totally different world, one that was peaceful, happy and all in all great. And back then, I wasn't afraid of anything; I didn't actually know what anguish and despair felt like. I even had feelings that were worse than depression! But what bothers me most about life, is not that things were bad in the past, but what is more profound is that I can't get a blank slate now. I can't erase the past! And this is where I get to the conclusion that life is unforgiving. Well, at least the past is. And I'm haunted by this for the rest of my life. My past mental states have left permanent scars. And it's sad, but for some reason I think that it's an important aspect of life to know, because I've been through it. Psychologically speaking, I've been permanently disabled. Before that, I think I was on an important quest towards something great, but now I won't ever be able to get there. My life has literally disintegrated even though you can't see it directly or tell that it is so. Sure, people as individuals might be cynical, but there's another word that I'm trying to use that's somewhat the same. I'm trying to convey, or express, that people don't simply think solely about themselves too much, but in thinking too much about other people and society in general, which they perceive as "sane", they fail to care or think about me enough. Now THAT'S DEPRESSING...but true. 😢 And keep this wisdom in mind. I'm not exaggerating any of this. Look at the world from my perspective.
An Example Of Why You Might Want To Ditch You Smartphone In The Future!
The link at the end of this post, this is an example of something that will most likely replace DSLRs, point and shoot cameras, micro four thirds, etc. I mean, many of today's cameras can't record 30 megapixel, let alone do it at 30 fps! I'm almost certain that the kinds of cameras being used today for photography will become obsolete. You can throw your smartphone into the trash, because our smartphones will someday be like pieces of shit!!!! I'm actually tempted to purchase a really high quality camcorder, just waiting for one to be able to do RAW then, despite the fact that I was tempted, I will have a buy that won't be something to scoff at, especially when it comes to quality. Camcorders are the only real thing, or electronic device, to be used for photographic or video making, besides phones, tablets, and PCs, that we ever needed. Let the camcorder evolve, you don't need the camera anyways, or anymore for that matter! interestingly enough, the news of this camera came only about two days after I wrote my post about a camera that should do such a feat (high speed photography at high frame rate). https://www.dpreview.com/news/2655243380/red-unveils-monstro-8k-vv-full-frame-sensor-for-weapon-cameras
I Wish
I wish that I were viewed as mentally sane and stable...for me it's not just a bad day, it's a bad life and I'm helpless.
I'm In Michigan!
Wow, it sure doesn't feel like Florida here anymore, in Michigan that is. I'm not even sure that it gets this cool in Florida, maybe it does in January or February. About three weeks ago, it was 80's to about 90 degrees and meanwhile it started snowing soon after in Wyoming.
Why do I get such nostalgia from specific songs?
Why do I get such nostalgia from specific songs, when they don't even have sentimental value to me?! What is going on?!
To End All That Is Bad
I'd like to put an end to all that's bad and has a negative influence on me, which seems to be everything. I'd like to enter into a paradigm shift, for once in a while.
Tuesday, October 10, 2017
When Will We Get Our First Snow?!
I'm currently listening to Ellie Goulding's Love Me Like You Do, the instrumental, and thinking to myself, when will we get our first snow?! This makes me feel nostalgic all over. In December? and January of 2015 is when all of that nostalgia developed. I was sent to a hospital for no practical reason and I was listening to this song. I was away from home for about two or three weeks and I remember!!!!!!!!!!!
What I Think About DMT
https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/unique-everybody-else/201210/dmt-aliens-and-reality-part-1
Here's what I think: DMT is like sleep paralysis or schizophrenia; it could be that people who either take DMT or have a condition such as sleep paralysis could see into another dimension! That is, that the world that we see while in a different state of consciousness could in fact be more than imaginary. What do you think? There could be more to imagination that we realize. Maybe there's a higher form of consciousness somewhere out there, which DMT can help us to access? I know from personal experience that even out in reality, there are strange anomalies such as those witnessed by people with "imaginary" minds. I feel as though I've been influenced by a DMT antidote that has stayed strong over the past few years!
Here's what I think: DMT is like sleep paralysis or schizophrenia; it could be that people who either take DMT or have a condition such as sleep paralysis could see into another dimension! That is, that the world that we see while in a different state of consciousness could in fact be more than imaginary. What do you think? There could be more to imagination that we realize. Maybe there's a higher form of consciousness somewhere out there, which DMT can help us to access? I know from personal experience that even out in reality, there are strange anomalies such as those witnessed by people with "imaginary" minds. I feel as though I've been influenced by a DMT antidote that has stayed strong over the past few years!
Life Isn't Fair
:Life isn't fair; it has destroyed me from deep inside. I've been psychologically killed many times before. It just isn't fair. How am I supposed to go on? And you may act surprised that I act this way. I feel like since I've left High School, all of the time that has passed has been wasted time. I'm currently wasting time and I despise it. I once had such an enormous variety of emotions, and everything literally extended into infinity, with nothing being wrong. Now my life is anything but infinite. I feel as though I've spent more than a lifetime already, wasting time and having a horrible time, feeling horrible and bored and downright in anguish. Currently, my life is indescribable. Time should definitely not have taken a turn as it did. It didn't end fairly, and life won't end fairly, because you can't go back in time to change things. Ever since high school, I've felt every bad feeling that you can and can't even imagine. Things have always looked down for me. There has been nothing but everything has been negative, that is, everything has begun and ended negatively for me. It's serious, because it seems to me as though it affects everyone in the world, literally. When I listen to a song, it makes me feel horrible deep inside because I know how the song once sounded like; it was wonderful and seemed to extend beyond time. Now I feel practically nothing from music, even though music isn't the only thing that I feel practically nothing from anymore; the same goes with TV, as well as games, etc. Nothing seems to make me even feel good no more. And if it does, then I feel bad afterwards, as though I have done something bad, which honestly, seems inexplicable to me. I've been writing for so much time now, and nobody seems to care. They either ignore what I've been writing, or take things to the other extreme, and think too critically of me, and that destroys me. Oh, how wonderful life could've been, is not even something that you can grasp. Everybody should realize this.
Monday, October 9, 2017
The Way I Feel
I feel abandoned today! Today I feel abandoned. I've been abandoned by the wonderful world of the past, abandoned by nostalgia, by everything that is great. I feel horrible.
Saturday, October 7, 2017
I once had such an immense variety of emotions and feelings
I once had such an immense variety of emotions and feelings, including but not limited to elation and happiness. But I also remember even more intense emotions, that were even greater. Those emotions are now gone forever...I'm never going to be able to redeem them. The best that I can possibly do is to use meditation to help me remember what those feelings were like.
There's another world out there...
There's another world out there, another dimension... and this dimension is where I would like to inhabit; one where I don't know about anything, especially the future and I am not aware that the future is coming, it's just like a distant memory. In this world, cars can change size according to how fast they're going, and mushrooms can grow to be ten feet tall. There are multiple dimensions beyond ours, and I only want to be in this one; the one. The universe and we are one with it, but yet I still strive to be out there somewhere, in a different world. This life hasn't been fair to me, it's been totally and absolutely unacceptable! And a life that's not fair, well that's what I've learned about life thus far...that it's not fair. And that's why life is shit. I don't have any FREAKING WAY TO REDEEM FAIRNESS! Wouldn't it be nice, to know that there is somewhere where we can escape knowledge and the onslaught of all that is negative, a world that is free of information, a simplistic world? That's where I would like to be at! I hate constantly being under the radar.
Could They Use Artificial Intelligence For Seeing Another Dimension?
Could they use artificial intelligence for seeing other dimensions?! Sure, the mind create hallucinogenic phenomena either through the use of drugs or by sleep paralysis. But if such phenomena is not merely imagination, but rather there might be some truth (authenticity) to it, then why couldn't we recreate this vision using technology, or artificial intelligence?
hallucinations. They are common, but I think that there may be more to them than that what meets the human eye.!
hallucinations. They are common, but I think that there may be more to them than that what meets the human eye.!
I don't believe in demons.
I don't believe in demons. I mean I guess that they could be real, although due to me being raised the way I was, I don't want to believe that the world has anything to do with demons. I think that the worst aspect of today's society is people's beliefs. They, people in general as a society, force upon me and/or others beliefs that are harmful to me and/or others. I totally hate this fact. It's extremely oppressive and I don't know how I should handle it. It's horrible. I'm actually terrified of what I've been taught to believe. I can't live in fear however. I want to change into something different.
What I Want
Here's what I want, I want a camera that can do 240fps @ 35 megapixels RAW, Larger sensor than that of full frame in a compact camera. It needs to be able to see UV and IR light. 123 stops of dynamic range.
I Don't Want To Go Anywhere Today!
I Don't Want To Go Anywhere Today! Today I'm writing something honest and that is, I'm forced to go somewhere and I don't want to. Someone please say something. I feel scared and in anguish. This is worse than ghosts, worse than anything I can possibly describe! What do I do? I don't want to be in this situation. I wish I could ask, "help me" but nothing will help me now. I have a gut feeling that I should stay away from those places. I want to stay at home today and not go anywhere today, for I'm extremely scared.
Friday, October 6, 2017
I've Been Thinking About It For A While
So I've been thinking about extra dimensions recently. In particular, I've been thinking about the phenomenon known to many as sleep paralysis. Sleep paralysis causes people to see supposed beings such as demons or aliens. That makes me wonder something truly compelling: "Does sleep paralysis make us enter visually into another dimension, allowing us to see what is usually invisible?" There's a show about a similar phenomenon on Gaia, about DMT, which is a hallucinogenic chemical found in human brains! Wow, I really need to watch that but I might opt for signing up for Patreon instead (Strange Mysteries) which is two dollars per month. I tried a free trial of Curiositystream before, and in my opinion it wasn't worth it. Hulu isn't really worth it either, in my opinion.
Clash Of Behemoths!
This is an illustration of a theoretical clash of cold vs warm fronts! This illustration shows surface conditions. We could also replace one of the factors with air pressure, which isn't included here but could also have a compelling influence.
I Been Called This, That's What!
I've been called a bitch, that what. Fuck it life isn't fair! Now I can't sleep for nights.
I Don't Feel Well
I don't feel well about my last premonition. I'm afraid that it might be wrong. I hope that I'm correct however. I hope that I'm not simply having intrusive thoughts! What do you think? Do you think that it will come true? Do you think that a major news event will occur tomorrow? If not, tell why. What is it that you think? Sky... remember the word "sky"!
Be prepared, because this is what they'll do
Divide the parties by dividing the poor from the rich. That's what they'll do. Be prepared. A major change may be coming soon.
MAJOR NEWS EVENT BETWEEN NOW AND TUESDAY
MAJOR news event some time between now and Tuesday, probably in the early morning hours between 5 and 6 in Europe, likely eastern Europe or England. likely Saturday, October 7, 2017. This news event will be significant . This event is very likely to happen in the early morning hours of tomorrow but may instead happen some time before Tuesday. Man these days are going to be bad, not just in general but also for me specifically.
Big System Moving In!
There's a big system making it's way throughout the nation, and it will be here in about two days!
Major News Event Tomorrow
Major news event tomorrow involving what? Major natural disaster like an earthquake? And will there also be a major car accident somewhere in the US? Maybe Southern Michigan near Detroit?! And he said,"For a black car and pickup collide,"
What?! Event Into Space!
http://hisz.rsoe.hu/alertmap/database/?pageid=event_desc&edis_id=CO-20171006-60097-USA
And now tell me what you really think! (be honest!) I don't know if you can check but I will upload this to make sure that it say,
And compare "16 hours ago" from the time this post was published to the time and date on the database! Please figure it out.Did I Dream About This Event?! Are My Recent Dreams Premonitions?
http://www.mirror.co.uk/news/uk-news/blood-streets-two-dead-seven-11263140
A couple of weeks ago, shortly before these kinds of attacks started, I had a dream that I think may have been a premonition. In fact, I asked online about my dream. https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170921162403AAj4mDu. Also, I had posted a dream that I had shortly before the shooting Las Vegas: https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170925041134AAoKDqV
Now, for the first question, if you had looked at the answers, one of them was that my dream may been a premonition because of the color orange. As you may have known, there have been at least one attack ever since using car(s). Why am I having these dreams?! And how about this one? https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20171006041010AAgs4vh ; will this last one come true?
A couple of weeks ago, shortly before these kinds of attacks started, I had a dream that I think may have been a premonition. In fact, I asked online about my dream. https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170921162403AAj4mDu. Also, I had posted a dream that I had shortly before the shooting Las Vegas: https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170925041134AAoKDqV
Now, for the first question, if you had looked at the answers, one of them was that my dream may been a premonition because of the color orange. As you may have known, there have been at least one attack ever since using car(s). Why am I having these dreams?! And how about this one? https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20171006041010AAgs4vh ; will this last one come true?
Climate Alert
So just now i'm listening to Ellie Goulding's Low Me Like You Do. http://www.sciencealert.com/massive-underwater-domes-of-methane-look-set-to-blow-at-any-moment#.WdcPqVj9Isc.facebook
AI
Will the future of AI be more powerful than humans, or will it be the other way around? How about yet another form of intelligence, not biological and maybe not AI either, at least not in the common sense of the word? That is, how about quantum AI? How will quantum AI deal with regular AI?
Thursday, October 5, 2017
Bankers And Politicians
Amidst the BS of everyday life, we have bankers and politics. I hate anything having to do with money. I hate the forsaken world because of its immorality. China and Spain are on the list, and United States is not totally blame free. I'm essentially sick to my stomach thinking about this world that it wreaks havoc on my soul. I hate my existence. Negativity is evil. And boredom is it's cousin. Ignorance is it's brother. If ignorance were a thing, it should be destroyed ASAP. I absolutely hate ignorance, it should be condemned for it destroys knowledge, and therefore all that we know.
The Media
The media telling us so much BS these days. I look down at the media and I'm awe struck just how immense it is. The media is like the whole entire Earth...When I get high enough, I can even start to see the media's curvature. I feel elation then. It's just about indescribable. As I look down, I can see many rivers, valleys, and other geographic features of the media, and I'm awe struck at how much information there is down there which I can't even see. That's when music may fill my ears, and I become immune to the pain that's down below, I mean the pain that's caused by so much information. I want out. I believe that there is such a thing as higher, extra dimensions. I'm frequently oppressed by the mundanity of everyday life and am so bored that it destroys my soul. Everyday of my life is practically identical. Nothing ever changes, or at least that's how it seems. I'm currently listening to some fantastic musical work but nobody will seem to give a shit. So...what is the answer then?!
Strange Things Are Happening In Wyoming
Strange things are happening in a very compelling state! https://www.yahoo.com/news/time-traveling-drunk-man-says-155541478.html
Using A Quadcopter
Using a quadcopter would be really neat in the investigation of paranormal phenomena. You could fly in, high buildings. What nice! I feel sad though.
High School Didin't End Well For Me
High School Didn't End Well For Me. Ever since, things have absolutely gone down for me. I've gone practically insane and nobody will ever treat me the same anymore. I feel like shit.
According to Washington Post, mass shootings aren't the price of freedom
According to Washington Post, mass shootings aren't the price of freedom: https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/no-mass-shootings-are-not-the-price-of-freedom/2017/10/05/d268dc8c-a928-11e7-850e-2bdd1236be5d_story.html?utm_term=.81f350d06983
Wednesday, October 4, 2017
I'm Pissed About This Facebook Post On My Messenger
I'm so angry right now. This is why I don't like Facebook or social media.
A thousand nights
My life is worth a thousand nights.
I lost myself over the course of a thousand nights.
I have had dreams in which I'd die and nothing would happen to me.
Now I believe that death isn't something to be afraid of.
I lost myself over the course of a thousand nights.
I have had dreams in which I'd die and nothing would happen to me.
Now I believe that death isn't something to be afraid of.
Tuesday, October 3, 2017
Monday, October 2, 2017
What?!
Unbelievable; shortly after this dream, there was a fury of attacks
https://www.cnbc.com/2017/10/01/marseille-terror-attack-stabbing.html
https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170921162403AAj4mDu
https://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20170921162403AAj4mDuThe High Speed Photo Camera That I Want
I want a camera that can do 240 frames per second at 25 megapixel!
Sunday, October 1, 2017
I Don't Know What To Do
I don't know what to do now...
everything has been settled and depression settles in,
like the heavy cold on a cold winter's night
everything has been settled and depression settles in,
like the heavy cold on a cold winter's night
Amazon Prime
I think I've got an obsession with Amazon Prime. Please forgive me for all nthat I've done and let's restart this whole story!
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