Grudge is never going to let me go...

Everyone’s alright, except for me, who can’t and probably won’t let things go. It’s excruciating knowing this that everyone can simply go on with life, while I can’t possibly do it anymore. The grudge keeps holding me hostage for my whole life. I was always convinced for the past five years that everything in my life was alright; I was unaware; I was wrong. I must get back at people, or else I keep living in excruciating pain. We have to undo this injustice. Why so much time must go by, and probably my whole life will go by, like this?! I’m condemned by those who hold grudges against me. One like me can fantasize that there’s justice or fairness that might come some day, but that’s only a fantasy...