Wake up to another beautiful day, but my emotions totally disagree as fuck!

Another clusterfuck, fucking bastards mess with me and I keep thinking of wanting to die.

Posting photos of yourself and looking for tattoos

You can post photos of yourself and look for tattooed individuals, yet you can’t take a decent unexplained photo! You can talk shit here and there, yet you don’t know the how of many other things...

Seriously!

It's late, and I'm depressed, please help me, I don’t want to hurt myself

I can't imagine something more beautiful than this

Nothing sounds more beautiful and shocking that this. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AJtDXIazrMo .

What use is it to go anywhere?!

I’ve been planning on possibly going to Tacoma, Washington this year. However, What use it for me to go on vacation anywhere, no matter how fun it’d be, if there are others that have hurt me and I can’t get over it?! I need my sanity back before I can do anything.

The secrets that I keep

My secrets don’t let me fall asleep and never let me be at ease. I can’t withstand this fucking life. Everyone around me, near me, and those who are also far, are halfwits like no one’s business. I can’t withstand it, it’s killing me. I wish that I had died a while ago from all of this, so that it would be behind me already and that I could move on with a good life. This despair, it’s never fading, it’s staying.

I'm constantly afraid

I feel like watching some foreign shows and memes, both of which I don’t understand, then falling asleep. I can’t admit all of the things that I’ve done in my life, but hopefully I have no secrets that I should tell about. It feels like that time again, to fall asleep for good. I get the impression that I’ve got a lower status in society because others are more popular, and even though they cost more, in some ways I’m even better than them. And I’m constantly afraid of this truth, which doesn’t let me sleep at all. I’m a restless person. No use returning to everyday life if it’s meant to be like this anymore.

Some more information on the swirl

Not much more data, but here’s an interesting side note: This might’ve been the closest that a tropical system has ever come to the Great Lakes; exactly 5 years ago, the largest ever recorded tornado was observed. I think that I most likely lost most of my readers because of me changing the blog address. I guess that they’re somewhere in the chaos of everyday life, never to be found again...

What can undo injustice

Someone please convince me that it’s not true, that there’s a deeper meaning to all of this, that they will be wiped off the face of the Earth... I’m lost in the world, because no one understands me!

Distractions are painful

Everything in life is a distraction! I’m constantly distracted by what’s of the most utmost importance...seems like I’ll never get where I’m supposed to be at in life, which is to get even with others and finally live in a world that's empty of injustice and unfairness. No matter how much money, how much materials, or how much happiness I were to receive right now, it would be nothing for me, as justice is all that I crave in this life, and is just what I deserve to enact.

The truth about our society, as observed from my perspective

If demons were real, they’d tell me to let go of it and find acceptance; but that’s not why I was born. I wasn’t born to accept my fate, the fate that others have put upon me!I’m seriously tempted to become an evil person, because some don’t deserve anything good in life. I don’t believe in the devil, but figuratively speaking, the “devil” is trying to meddle with, and manipulate my life. I’m not a person to believe in fairy tales, but I talk about such things for the sake of context, so that others can understand me in a way that works. There might not be a devil, but there’s something called evil, and it’s a byproduct of the human species. I wish that you could all realize this and I could get help somehow, but since I’m a piece of shit, no one will care... no matter how I feel, others’ relationships and feelings are more important than me. If needed be, many people wouldn’t hesitate to get rid of me from society for the sake of everyone else. Some of you might know what a heart break is, but I feel much worse than that, because I’ve been “heartbroken” not because of one, but because of many people. And it’s not meant to be this way, for me to live in the midst of these people. I despise this place in which I live, there’s no redemption for me. So much gets lost, and nothing returns...

A Swirl Part 2...

Just northeast of the frame is Michigan

I Seriously, just one look from me is enough to lose friends

Just the way I look is enough to make someone forget about me; It’s depressing to say the least. I suppose that I’m one of the inferior ones, and I don’t matter at all. I come off as someone who doesn’t deserve this life given to me on this world, and honestly, it makes myself want to die.

I wish that all of those people I’ve been thinking about would die, because they make me want to die (on a daily basis)...

Grudge is never going to let me go...

Everyone’s alright, except for me, who can’t and probably won’t let things go. It’s excruciating knowing this that everyone can simply go on with life, while I can’t possibly do it anymore. The grudge keeps holding me hostage for my whole life. I was always convinced for the past five years that everything in my life was alright; I was unaware; I was wrong. I must get back at people, or else I keep living in excruciating pain. We have to undo this injustice. Why so much time must go by, and probably my whole life will go by, like this?! I’m condemned by those who hold grudges against me. One like me can fantasize that there’s justice or fairness that might come some day, but that’s only a fantasy...

Photography photo formats and HDR photography

Today let’s discuss the difference between Jpeg and RAW imaging format; which one should you use? If the contrast of a scene is relatively high, then you’ll probably want to use RAW. RAW can produce approximately the same results as an HDR merged Jpeg with a range of -1 to +1 EV exposure compensations. RAW processing might seem difficult to some people, but it’s really not, unless of course you don’t have the right image processing software. These days, there are cameras that can do RAW processing in the camera. Raw files are larger than Jpeg, so if you’re trying to save internal memory space on your memory card, Jpeg isn’t a bad idea. In many situations, the difference between Jpeg and raw image quality might be difficult to notice, especially because newer, more modern cameras have better Jpeg processing techniques. In fact, some modern cameras can produce decent “HDRish” images, or images that look much like HDR, right out of camera, after processing of course, without the need to take multiple different exposures (at least when using RAW). If you know what you’re doing, then RAW is a great choice of format for photography. The only major problem that I can think of that even single RAW images have trouble figuring out, is highlight recovery; it’s much easier to recover shadow detail rather than highlight detail. That’s a major reason why I don’t overexpose much. Now, when you have a partly cloud day, and the clouds are frequently passing overhead, then we very likely have a problem, especially when doing HDR photography, as the required exposure changes accordingly to the cloud cover. Then there’s also the problem of moving subjects, such as when a breeze comes and rustles the leaves, which can really be a nuisance, especially if you have images to merge which were taken handheld. Sometimes it gets so dark outside that if you want to do HDR photos, you can’t help but use a tripod or some other steady support. RAW can’t take burst photos as quickly as Jpeg, and the buffer will likely not last as long.

A swirl, don’t you think?

I’m inferior to others...because I’m a piece of trash

I’m inferior to quiet people, to outspoken people, to introverts and extroverts, and all of the like

I despise some people on social media, and rightly so!

Dam*, why you people just ignore me like that? You think that ignorance is bliss, but ignorance is actually the evil tormenting my life as it’s directed towards me. Instead of bliss, ignorance causes lasting, excruciating, pain. Because of this, my life has been made to be nothing more than shit, at least to some people, and I’m greatly insulted. Why is there so much anger towards me?! I feel isolated and horrible to a great extent. I was hoping on doing something fun, but whatever my next step is in life, such as getting up to get something, or writing in a journal, it won’t lead to anything unless of course I do something that can lead to reversing this situation and getting into a better relationship w/people. I can’t get over it, that some people just refuse...I’m a lonely person...I was looking so eagerly on doing something that could bring me pleasure, but no matter how much pleasure or happiness that I experience now, it won’t lead to reversing my situation, which is of the most utmost importance. Seems as though everything that I do is either childish or to be condemned even by those near me. I can’t go doing anything at all, because that doesn’t lead me to getting even with everyone! Unless I can get even, I will drown in excruciating pain and won’t ever feel good or even acceptable. I wish that the situation, or the relationships that I have with people would be reversed, and that there be a sense of urgency among others, not just me, for this to come about. Ever since people have treated me this way, I’ve had nothing but miserable and unfair events happen to me; people would look down upon me as childish or innaproriate; but I think that it’s time to stop “being innapropriate”, because the only appropriate step to take next is to undo the injustice in my life. How can people do this to me?!

My photos look like shit!

My astronomy photos look like shit; the setup is shit, and so are the results. I hate this life because of all of the problems that I’m getting.

I need a way to numb my pain

Writing just isn’t the same as talking

Usually, when I talk about my problems in person, people listen. Now I’m dissed. No one gives a care about me, they just abandon me in this psychological state in which I am!

The conspiracy theory behind my blog

The notion or idea, that a lot, or only A) Communists, B)Capitalists, or C)Fascists view my blog is a misunderstanding. Why would that be so?! No matter which way this life goes, it’s absolutely unjust in every sense of the word; after they insult and mistreat me, others who have nothing to do with it attack me psychologically, and my perception towards others is warped into the horrible perception that it is. Yet no one seems to understand me. An unjust world is extremely troubling to me, and I feel that I’m being treated unjustly by a higher power (whether there is one or not), by not getting the chance to meet up with those who’ve hurt me. It’s cause for excruciating pain, and I’m constantly looked down upon, such as when people give me demented facial expressions that make me feel extremely unpleasant. I wish that all of this was averted somehow, just like my aversion to lack of justice.

Usually, my wishes would come true...

My words have no merit, no say, no significance. I’m being treated like a piece of trash constantly, and no one wants to admit it. I once had a wish, that things would improve, because usually my wishes came true, but now nothing comes true. I strongly think that this is a punishment put upon me for not obtaining fairness in my life, and not getting back at the people who’ve been punishing to me. I don’t know what to do. My life comes off as wrong, and unfair, because that’s what it is. I practically can’t do anything because I’ve got these memories stuck in my head which I can’t get rid of. It’s like being tormented, psychologically. I think that I’m being called to reverse things, but now that we have all gone our separate ways, I see no hope anywhere in sight.

I can’t just abandon those who’ve been mean to me

Someone should come and take me away from this situation, away from the suffering. Complete lack of sympathy is literally like killing me, not physically but mentally. I lose sleep just thinking about it. I don’t want to help anyone. Everything that anyone does or tells me to do is unacceptable, because I have to get my life back! I never realized before just how unjust life would be! Life is a mistake. I want to redeem things, but I’m finding that because of others’ actions, my life’s a lost cause. Another day, another year, the same old. I don’t want to be living my life in circles. Because that’s how it’s like, I keep returning to my memories and to the fact of how unfair all of this is. One like me just hopes that a time comes when things will get reversed, or improve, but it gets worse over time!

I'm going to Portland, Oregon this year!

Yes, you read that right! (I get jealous too easily.) It’s supposed to be a nice place, eh? Then I tour the state of Washington. Leave all of those fake friends behind (not that all of you are). Heh, I showed a picture to someone of myself with a fake leaf that’s actually just a native to North America and they got like offended, that it's one of those that's umm...you know...

Attempts at lunar photography using the Sony RX100 II

I tried to take my first astronomical photos using my Sony RX100 II. I used a Bushnell 900mm scope with 4.5” diameter mirror. Initially, at 20 megapixels you can already easily see that, despite using a photo that was done more than 10 seconds after the shutter was depressed, the image quality is degraded because of atmospheric turbulence. It was about 75 degrees and the air quality didn’t seem all that great, while the moon was about 26 degrees above the horizon. The totally black and white photos show what the moon looks like while using a red filter; as you can notice, there isn’t much improvement. I even did a high resolution, 79 megapixel stack. Other than that, I noticed some other interesting things: the side of the moon opposite of the shadow is significantly blurry. At the widest angle setting of the camera, 28mm, despite the fact that the moon appears smaller because it’s zoomed out, the lens appears to be sharper than it is at the longest focal range; but it’s not necessarily less sharp, but instead I’d say that there’s less contrast and so with the camera set to maximum zoom, the details appear to be less clear. For the 28mm focal length, I stopped down the aperture to f/2.8, which is just enough to produce an image without loss of sharpness. Meanwhile, for the longest focal range, I stopped down the aperture by one stop, and at that aperture the long focal length of the lens performs at it’s best. So, theoretically, you could just create a photo mosaic out of your magnified photos, but in my opinion, I’d rather do a stack @ 28mm than a mosaic of enlarged photos. I should try it out using IR photography, but that takes some investment. The best time for me to take lunar photos would be in late December or later in the winter, when atmospheric turbulence has decreased. I wonder what latitude on Earth would be best to capture such photos, since the moon’s altitude varies by latitude, and at the same time the varying climates make the equation much more complex.

Last Notice!

The new blog address will be found @ blogspotposts.blogspot.com; this notice may only up for a few hours! If undesirable people find this link, it will be changed w/out notice! I don’t tolerate someone sitting in front of a computer and laughing at my posts. Thanks for your understanding.

Is this the reason why people hate me?!

I think that I might have found the very reason for why people tend to delete me off of Facebook, and it might just make you go crazy. Everything that I write is essentially a waste of time to them, since after they get to the end of a line of text, they have to start at the left. That’s not because of me though, that’s because of how naive the English is. I’m an emotional person, so when someone leaves me without a reason, it makes me want to die. I never realized before just how bad of a person I’d come off as, and in this instance it involves people who are quite popular. I feel very bad emotions, like my status in society is going to hit rock bottom. However, I have a side of me that tells me that those are just emotions. I wish that side of me had a greater influence on me, but it’s been failing me for a while. I literally want to escape from my problems.

Stunts

As of now, I feel like eating a ghost pepper while running through fire and getting kicked in the crotch, while it’s storming, and getting pelted with paintballs. In fact, I once did see someone do something like that on Youtube, but since then I never have been able to locate the video. It’s time for me to make one!

Oh no, Climate Chaos!

Here we go again: Uh oh! A subtropical storm has started to form in the Caribbean; climate is changing! Everyone hide! It’s coming for you, so start pumping out the warm air! Start capturing as much carbon as possible and make plastic out of it! Sprinkle the arctic with dry ice! Ban vehicles if they emit greenhouse gasses! It doesn’t matter that the growing season starts off early or ends late, just make sure that the climate stops changing! Ban electronics if they emit ozone! Make sure to block more of the sun's rays from reaching Earth! Make sure that all vehicles and houses are either white or reflective! Make sure that vehicles aren't outside in the sunshine for an extended amount of time, or else they'll start to warm up, and the collective heat that builds up inside will contribute to a warming scenario! https://weather.com/storms/hurricane/news/2018-05-25-subtropical-tropical-storm-alberto-forecast-gulf-of-mexico-memorial Oh, and don't forget to manipulate the clouds to counteract climate chaos!

Why I hate reading non Arabic text

In my opinion, reading text which isn’t arabic is a waste of time. It forces you to read for a longer time than you’re supposed to. It’s like sleeping, which is in a sense a waste of time. In Arabia, they do it correctly; when you get to the end of a line, going left to right, the next line begins right and goes left. When we realize that this is the correct way of doing things?! That’s why I opt out of reading here in America. Besides, just about all books here are written in the same font style, which gets boring somehow.

List of songs that at least partially reflect my life

This is a list of songs who’s lyrics are relevant to me, and bring me pleasure, and also affect my emotions, though the second one isn't totally relevant Kygo - This Town (Lyric) ft. Sasha Sloan Ariana Grande - No Tears Left To Cry Frenship - 1000 Nights

My Secrets

I’m freaking tired of keeping my secrets anymore. I’m afraid that they go (sift) through all of my profiles, and if they find something that they don’t like, they just delete me; but those are the kinds of people that don’t deserve my friendship! I feel like someone abandoned from a peoples' ship I think that the worst has already happened; social media I’ve had questions given to me such as, “Do you want to hurt yourself or others?”, as well as other phsychological evaluations. Now that I think about it, I think that I unconsciously do have those thoughts, without even being aware of them. I’m terrified that these thoughts might become conscious and then my life become dangerous. Why have I always been treated differently than others?!

Some people just don’t get it

I’m tempted to stop communicating with most people for good; some of them are too sensitive and would want to attack me for something trivial. Then random people start to hold a grudge against me. But the same people probably wouldn’t be brave enough to admit to anything. Unfortunately, I know exactly who those people are, thanks to the fact that I don’t have quite as many friends, so they were easy to find. I’m not even going to mention them, because I hate mentioning their names. I always experienced them differently, as nice, but they turned out to be quite deceptive. People who seem perfectly normal turn on me without notice/warning, and that’s cause for concern. I’m concerned about what my future’s going to look like. I literally can't sleep at night because of this!

I'm tempted

I'm tempted so much to hurt others, who haven't done me much wrong, because of those who have done me much wrong. Again, this is how the world works, and I despise this very fact. Makes me no want to be alive. I should be able to meet those people some time so they get some sense, but I’ve no idea how. It seems as though those who’ve hurt me might be reading this post, and think about me as a stupid soulless SOB. And they might want me to become more sad, but I can’t allow that to happen.!

What it feels like writing a post

I feel better either right before or during I write a post. I realize some of what this life is really about, and I write with honesty. I think you all don't like me because you've somehow determined that I'm lying. If you could all understand life like I do, then you'd all be different.

My decisions will make me die

I feel literally horrible working nearby to home. If I need to work locally, I won’t. Driving is unbearable to me because every time it’s the same path, so I refuse. There’s a very real reason for this, but I can’t explain it, and even if I did, no one would understand. But I need to study more, so I need more money. Most likely what will happen to me is that I will die because of this mental suffering... I’ll die the piece of trash that people take me for. I don’t even need to hurt myself, because all of this will end against my intentions. We don’t know when we die, for example we could be in a car crash today. How this world works is really strange and unfair in my opinion; why do some people never contact me saying what’s wrong? Why don’t they at least tell me what I’ve done to make them mad?! I might not be tortured, but I literally feel like it.

We all end up in the same place

I think that ultimately, none of us will end up in a good place after we die. Some of us give no reason for our actions, and I’ll die of sadness.

I shouldn't have typed the wrong letter

I shouldn’t have pressed that one key on my computer. I shouldn’t have posted anything on social media. I talked to a phsychologist, but the only thing that they can do is help emotionally. I shouldn’t be talking to people, or else this might happen again. Practically no one wants to know me anymore. People are so grudgingly unforgiving, I can’t help but cry. This is a sad world and I can’t write much except the truth. I don’t want to hurt myself or have disturbing thoughts but I guess I now realize the source of these thoughts.

Is this what you people are mad at?

I walked into a shop once, and said something that I'll regret for a while. I thought afterwards that it was funny, but now I’m feeling the consequences. Is that what you people are mad at? Because that incident was definitely horrible. I should live in angst because of it, I don’t deserve to be treated well. I guess that until the end, I will be looked down upon because of something so trivial. I thought that everyone had the capacity to forget about such things! Or maybe you’re mad at me that I got attacked and called names, that I’ve been treated like a piece of trash who virtually no one wants to have anything to do with?! I guess that I’ll always have problems with the locals because of this, but perhaps that’s why I want to hang out with strangers now, and why they seem to me like family. I need some comfort. I think that it’s time to move out of my hometown and find some better people to talk to! I “regret” leaving Ohio, the people were so nice, but I couldn’t help but leave. Hopefully I can return.

My Fantasy

Who doesn’t like fantasizing? My fantasy isn’t something crazy, but more realistic. It would be that everything would return to normal, that the worst wouldn’t happen anymore, and that everyone who I know would be fine with me. There’s no time for other fantasies! I daydream about being a normal person, that I didn’t have to be concerned anymore. And that people would eventually forgive me for the slight things I might have done. I wish that I didn’t come off as crazy or strange, or as a bastard, and that people would be more tolerant towards me. That’s my fantasy, but then in a world like this, it’s just a fantasy... But as it goes, it doesn’t seem as if that’s going to happen. You don’t ever message me to tell me what’s wrong, and you couldn’t care any less but instead remove me! I thought that people were fine with me, but that’s not how it works. I got an indescribable heartbreak but you don’t realize it, and never give a fuck about it. No matter how horrible things are for me, you’re still ready to delete me at a moment’s notice, never realizing what’s going on with me.

A True Story

This isn’t a joke, this actually happens to me at times! I seen someone the other day who I considered quite attractive, but I guess she had to walk away. She wasn’t angry or anything, just everyday life made us seperate: we are never going to see each other ever again!!!! How can one resolve a heartbreak, when it’s eternal?! Of all of the strangers who I’ve had to practically abandon, it felt like abandoning family members, but I still don’t give up! I think that I need to get some serious support. I’m affected emotionally by this; I can’t go to sleep because of the implications of seeing someone once, then never again communicating with them, such as when I mentioned, for instance, someone attractive. It makes me think that the worst is going to come true! Let’s all hope that there’s a meaning behind this abandonment, and that we’ll get shown why it must be this way, and how this will be reversed. Life makes me feel as though I’m suffering, but feelings are far harsher than reality. I must go and sleep now, but let’s hope for the best.

What’s going on with them Germans?!

Why are so many Germans viewing my blog?! I’d really like to visit my viewers; It’s nice to do what’s meant to be done!

They’re going to do it again...

I wish that there was somehow that I could be saved, that I could get help for myself, because I’m tempted to do dangerous things because of the way people behave to me. I guess they’ll do it again, and they will indirectly be responsible! Some people would kill me if they knew that I accidentally clicked on a wrong link on a computer, whether it be in school or my own, or if I selected too many words!

I often feel sad and abandoned

Until now, I was alright having virtually no one to hang around with; but now, I’m really sad!

Maybe there's a place called forgiveness, and maybe someday we'll get there

You never say anything to me, never message me, never forgive me, never apologize, yet despite all of this, you still delete me... You make me look like a bastard, and probably sit there laughing. I bet more will delete me because of this post, or because I wrote a trivial post... I keep thinking that there's a place for me called forgiveness, that maybe some day I'll get there... For years I’ve been hoping people would forgive me, and not leave me. But now I realize that life is an ocean, and forgiveness is the shore, which can’t be seen and can’t be reached. Quit leaving me, and realize that I honestly feel this way; these really are my emotions!

When's the world going to change?

I’ve got no idea what the source of my problems is, but I want the world to know that it’s so trivial, and since people don’t want to change because of it, I’m tempted to make a photo of myself at the shore or somewhere sad, and have it say, “Forgiveness from others is like the other shore; it can’t be seen, and may never be reached”. As I sit here, hurting, I think about the nonexistence of people’s forgiveness towards me. As I’m tempted to death to hurt myself, I remember that there might be a place called forgiveness, which I can call home... that's when I can go to sleep

I’m a sad person...

In my fantasy, someone will forgive me, or apologize to me...

And so the darkness begins

Where are the good people?

This place is full of people who enjoy sex, drugs, and rock and roll, and yet they aren’t vegetarian. They probably also have some truly horrible intentions that go unnoticed. I feel like many people who I know have horrible intentions. And I’m serious! I can’t help but ask, “where are the good people at?” Perhaps someday I will find them? And then my life will change for the better, and there will be relief.

Back in the 60's or 70's...

While in Germany, dad, who didn’t sympathize with fascists, drove well over the speed limit to get to the airport. Luckily, he didn’t get to talk to any of those Germans who are mean to foreign people. Additionally, his cousin had talked to me after that incident. He went on a visit to France and met another guy of the same nationality as his, then he offered the guy a coffee at the airport. The guy was surprised, saying “A Polish guy offering coffee?!”. Next thing you know, one of them told me casually, “Look at me”. By the way, despite this being true, I want also let you know that this is my attempt at making a joke. Message me if you get it.

Excessive indulgence

I feel as if what’s going on to me isn’t fair; so much so that I’m terrified when I think about what’s happening. There never really was such a thing, or time, known as the “good times”; that was just an illusion, and people manipulated the phrase to make it describe what’s not supposed to be inherent to goodness. In honesty, eithics should come before health. So stop fooling around. I also think it’s unethical, or at least immoral, to engage in indulgence, especially when it’s excessive. Making love to people generally doesn’t meet such criteria, as despite being healthy, it’s unethical. We indulge in just about everything that we come across; for example, sweets, electronics, entertainment, and in some situations even violence. I’ve been tempted to the extreme to do all of these but somehow I make it without indulging. But start living in a world w/out these luxuries, and you will essentially not survive. I doubt that it’s alright to pursue more happiness or pleasure from things as is necessary. We indulge. but do we ever learn that, after examining ourselves deep within, we don’t necessarily deserve it? Before I decide about seeking any form of pleasure, I’m certainly aware of how unethical people are in general. For example, strict parents or family enforcing unnecessary rules. A more specific example is when parents are too strict and enforce religion even on adults, thereby taking away their freedom. Atheists and Religious folks are both wrong in my opinion, because to be a “perfect” person, you should take advice from each party. Each party has its own benefits, and I strive to live a balanced life. I realize that if there were times in life when I sought excessive pleasure that there was always what seemed like a “presence” telling me to think more often, and better. Life isn’t simply about pleasure; it’s also about what’s unpleasant. We enjoy thinking about pleasure, but in the end, we aren’t ready for unpleasant moments, and while we might be good at having pleasure or happiness, we refuse to think about how much we really deserve it. Why did we come to a world like this?! We should’t tolerate anyone who’s unethical, because they have pretty much all that they want.

The best

Selena Gomez, Ariana Grande, Camila Cabello, Demi Lovato, & Taylor Swift are the best! Demi Lovato is among the prettiest women of all time. Imagine Dragons and Kygo are some of the best male artists/bands. These musicians remind us that, despite the all of the ugly, wretched music of the modern time, music has become great again. We no longer should say that “modern music is worse than old music”.

Some of my ex friends would probably betray me.

I now realize that life is nothing more than a story. It ultimately means nothing, because I’m nothing more than a piece of trash to people. Everything, it’s all just trivial. At least some people want to treat me like I’m nothing and that I should be forgotten forever, never getting to know me and not having a sensible reason for doing so. If they could, they’d probably betray me. It's quite strange, to say the least. I don't know who to talk to about this. I guess I'll always be alone, because eventually you will all leave (delete) me, but I'm aware that there are benefits of having nothing to do with others, and so am looking forward!

If I keep going out of the house, then eventually I may have no friends left! I hate the way the world works.

Better to die in suffering than to cater to people

People really are motherfuckers! I wish I was the only one left on this Earth, at which point I wouldn’t mind starving or dehydrating to death, because that’s how much I want people out of my life. And you know, you’re probably thinking that I’m writing this not literally, or that I’m just exaggerating, which isn’t true. If you think that I’m just a piece of trash, then I’d rather be left without you. I’ve had too many people be bastards to me to think otherwise. When someone leaves me online, I can only imagine how much despair they’d cause me in real life. If people really are like this, then if I had the choice, I wish that I was the only person left alone on this world, despite the consequences that would follow. It’s pretty much either everyone or no one.

I was attacked in my dream last night. The guy who attacked me was huge and walked away because some guy with a sword came out of his car and started yelling at him. That’s when I had to make a tough decision: Do I attack and risk getting attacked again, or do I save him? The guy with the sword eventually got him to fall on the ground, after which he didn’t know what to do. He eventually slashed him and I thought that maybe things were over. So with him on the ground, us two walked toward a nearby mall, where we arrived next to a restaurant. The guy who initially attacked me got up and started walking to me. I tried to tell people to call the cops but no one would do it, and there was a huge waiting line so I couldn’t just tell the employees. The person who had the sword had given it to me, but I found that it was now wrapped in packing paper. I found a knife and struggled to tear the paper, and that’s when it all ended.

HDR photography in the Cuhyahoga Valley

Hyperrealism from Ohio. Cuyahoga National Park. The Cliffs are well worth the hike to get there, and I liked the waterfall but unfortunately with a photo of it head on from the trail, a bridge can be seen in the background, which is quite frustrating. For some of my photos of the cliffs, I forgot to adjust the formatting of the photos, ending up with only Jpegs for those photos, resulting in decrease image quality; go figure! I really like the Cuyahoga Valley National Park in Ohio. However, it does have it’s downside, and it’s a pretty huge one. Approximately 95% of the park is totally boring. The places that aren’t are quite nice, but the park is basically difficult to stay in becuase of it’s geography; if you want to get from one place to another, you might have to actually get out of the park.

Today's a good day to...

Feels like it’s time to read a book in cleveland, in the park, with a 5 mph breeze from the north, under a partly cloudy sky.

Seeing strangers

May I never forget what happens when I see a stranger. One time, I used Google maps, and found that little hut on the border of Germany about one foot away from the Oder River, called Anne Frank. When I see strangers in public, I hope to death that I don’t forget what they look like, so that I can see them again sometime. The “demons” want to distract me. When I see someone who I like, and have to abandon them, I feel just like someone who’s been taken away by evil forces.

I think that it’s time for a serious discussion.

Regarding what fate has in store, it's time to discuss this. I can’t sleep nights (or days) because life doesn’t allow me to. A simple response to a post directed to me, no matter what kind of response I give, is considered by people as grounds for deletion. Why is something simple like "I won't" make me lose about five friends on Facebook. But of course, I’m probably regarded as a psychotic blogger who’s existence is mere garbage. What kind of world did I end up being born into?!

Just as I suspected!

Apparently people see me as a bastard; I just checked Facebook and, just as I suspected, I now have less friends. Over the last two days I didn’t go on Facebook, but I already knew somehow that I’d lose someone! What’s going on?! It’s making me go crazy! People ought to tell me about a problem, not “hide” from it! It makes me wish that I had died, juts knowing that people are like the way they are. If this is fate, I don't know how to survive. How can someone delete me so suddenly, when there’s still a whole life ahead?!

I don't even have to check Facebook

I just came back from a two day vacation. The only time I used internet/wifi over this time was when I was on Google maps. With that being said, without even checking Facebook, I almost know that I'll have lost friends! Again, people coming up with no reason but to remove me from their Facebook friends list. One just wishes that it not be true. I don't think I'll ever understand. I guess I'll always be treated like a piece of trash! I don't know if it's relevant to this, but also, when I'm on vacation, I see random people and feel an excruciating pain, the pain of never meeting them again, especially if it's a "loved one" (someone who I want to love). The truth is that this world isn't meant for me, either that and/or maybe there is a deeper, hidden meaning, that can only be understood by a lifetime of thinking? The effects aren't just on the mind, they are also on the universe itself! Why must I constantly despair so much, and why is it that the situations that I encounter (meeting strangers) is totally unforgiving? The world in which we live in is literally indescribable! When you actually see people that you'll never meet again, thereby you made a decision to never see them again!

Bullied loner

I tried telling you about bullying in my posts, and I even wrote about myself not talking to many people. I also wrote a link about the increase in teen suicides; I told you that this is a dangerous world.

Seriously, check this out!

A car crash involving likely DUI, as car moved eastbound and hit a Ford Ranger. Why am I mentioning this? Because I wrote about it before the event happened! http://compelledblog.blogspot.com/2018/05/coming-from-west-crashing-into-pickup.html http://compelledblog.blogspot.com/2018/05/it-will-be-major-car-crash.html http://q13fox.com/2018/05/17/crash-closes-hood-canal-bridge-in-both-directions/

Another piece of evidence; the 10 spinning demons

http://reallybloggy.blogspot.com/2018/05/when-aliens-misbehave-demons-can-walk.html 10 demons, attack in the morning, the demon walk through a wall; is this a mere coincidence? "Something" clearly told me to write these strange lines of script that that developed in my mind. I hope that you know what I'm talking about.

No comments on my blog?

This is so lame

That stuff was good!

Coming from the west, crashing into a pickup.The

It will be a major car crash. The “voices” are talking to me. If you can't tell, I've been having premonitions but I can’t prove the fucking thing, because the times on blog posts are fucked up, so I can’t prove to you that I had an actual premonition! WTF people, change things around, this can’t go unpunished. My only choice might be to make Youtube videos.

Listen, I understand that my posts might make me come off as insane, but yesterday, 5/17/18 something interesting happened; I started writing on a different blog; I wrote about demons, an attack in the morning, and about what’s deeper than the unconscious, or when the brain waves get slower than they do during REM. Is this a mere coincidence, that I started writing such strange stuff, or did “something” make me write? Evidence: http://reallybloggy.blogspot.com/2018/05/i-think-something-might-be-wrong-with-me.html Bastards at Google don't even bother to mention the time during which my posts have been written; how are we supposed to know if a post is a premonition of a future event, when you don't even offer the time?! That last post was written very early in the morning, but of course Google won't allow me that privilege, so I can't claim any information from my last post as being part of a premonition. This is so messed up! Google, WHY?! ; interesting, but I'm afraid not quite any correlation.

We don't know when we're going to die

I was trying to get the message across, that we never know when we’re going to die, and don’t let yourself be bullied; don’t let anyone take advantage of you, or try to get better than you, especially if it involves swear words and attacks. I was trying to get across the fact that people, if they have trouble bullying you, if they're unsuccessful, will eventually try to kill. I told you that many humans or “people” are actually subhuman in a sense, because they have no sympathy and forgiveness. They don’t tell you sorry, even till they die; they essentially abandon you in the mental state that you are. Since we don't know when we're going to die, then I think that it's safe to say that we can't let ourselves be distracted by everyday life, which takes us away from the matter at hand.

Man, some people must really hate me

Man, some people must really hate me. I don't get any messages or contact from them, so I stay away from those kinds of people. I hope I never meet them.

I swear that when I fall asleep I have no dreams. My dreamtime is empty every night, and so is my life. I should be having crazy dreams, dreams of fantasies and whatever else is meant for mature audiences.

No views from France?!

The advantages of point and shoot over DSLR

A smaller sensor might not seem to be a great characteristic of a camera, but that’s arguably better. Overall, DSLRs aren’t much better, and maybe even only as good, as compact cameras, with a few exceptions. I think that it’s great that DSLRs usually have higher DR than smaller cameras, but compact cameras still have an advantage: you can use a quick aperture, without needing to increase DOF, an aspect that’s critical sometimes in macro photography. Also, compact cameras offer a higher crop factor than cameras with larger sensors, meaning that it’s easier to take a photo of something that’s very small. To get expansive DOF with an SLR at macro distances while using quick apertures, you’d need to resort to focus stacking, increasing the number of images that you need. A compact camera can more easily capture expansive DOF, in a single photo, which is useful or even necessary when there’s a limited amount of light, or for anything that’s moving. So, you can’t say necessarily that a compact camera is worse for low light photography than an SLR, despite the higher DR of SLRs. For many situations, producing the perfect image consists of various aspects relating to image quality. For instance, when the sun’s setting behind some clouds and I’m trying to get a photo of a sitting fly, and I don’t have any other light source, for the SLR I might be able to up the ISO to be able to use a slower aperture; for the compact, small sensor camera, this is less of an issue, albeit the compact performs more poorly at high ISO; so, one of the photos could have more noise (grain) than the other, but the tradeoff here is that the noisier photo has better DOF. Unfortunately however, compact cameras, unlike SLRs, can’t give you the opposite, which can be desirable, decreased DOF. So the isolation of details isn’t as possible in the compact camera, unless people start implementing computational photography. You can create the effect of shallow DOF, even using Instagram, but this is simply not the same as real DOF. These days, there has been success in creating a time lapse video from gigapixel photos; if you can do that, then you might just be able to create a time lapse using the Brenizer method. We could in fact theoretically create a video while implementing the Brenizer method, but how could this work when there’s movement?!

New Idea!

I’ve got an idea; how about creating a transition lens for cameras? Perhaps not just any transition lens, but one that can locally transition at various shades, according to local light levels. It’d be interesting to know just how practical and feasible this would be.One implication that I can think of is if you want to keep the shutter speed constant, despite the fact that lighting conditions could be changing. It might seem obvious to many of you, however it would likely be limited. Now there are what I would (not exactly) call “digital transition” in some cameras, at least hacked Canons in which the exposure settings can change according to light levels, which means, for instance, that in a timelapse that includes the same scene during night and day, all of the photos can be exposed properly. Now, with a physical, as opposed to digital ND filter, you wouldn’t have to change the ND filter once the camera reaches it’s exposure limit. For instance, if you want a long exposure of five seconds for each photo in a time lapse, and some of the photos are taken when the sun is high in the sky, and the time lapse were to progress into the darker hours, then the ND filter would allow one to be more creative by allowing the exposure time to be constant. Additionally, this would help because when it started to get dark, for particular situations, you could keep the camera at base ISO and the aperture the same. In this modern age, it could also become helpful for video, because the video resolutions will soon be great enough, that aperture choice can significantly affect the quality of the footage, at least with lenses that are relatively cheap. You could maintain a constant DOF while the footage wouldn’t have to be sped up or slowed down at any time to compensate for the different exposures.

Mad Sugar

Stale coffee would like to talk if it had a mouth, because Colombia is getting aroused by the mere thought of it. Sweet coffee doesn't want to talk, because Colombia wants more; The coffee mug, if it had hands, would draw the nation on itself, simply because there’s a speck of cocaine hidden somewhere in the Canadian wilderness, hundreds of miles from any village. Canada would talk if it had a mouth, since there’s a speck of cocaine hidden somewhere in the Canadian wilderness. The mug would talk if it had a mouth, and say “I want to turn brown inside”. But Colombia can refuse, because Canada’s not brown. Coffee can turn Colombian, and say “why am I not white?!” Consciousness used as a tool for reality. This is going in some direction, but where?! My creativity has clearly plummeted.

Free writing

The elements going around in an array around the demons, and a greenish mist flowing among various possibilities. A musical dance gradually becoming a ritual, and three brush strokes at 3 am by 4th dimensional beings. Colors and shapes getting denser, and the mind becoming a tool for existence. Conscious thought different than the meanderings of higher powers, because another drug became legal. Stale coffee that would like to talk if it had a mouth, because Colombia is getting aroused by the mere thought of it. When a shaman is in the mood, state would like to legalize the Salvia of the thinking world. Consciousness becoming the reality of another whisper from the unconscious entities. Sadness could be flying above the mood circus, when another person makes an objective flight. Subjective reality is one intrinsic aspect of the ever changing and undulating electromagnetic field. Too many electronics in one place working at the same time, my head spinning because of such a mere conclusion, formed while the “ether” creates the demonic songs coming from the Canadian new era. The never resting company of fiends approaches the dawn of time, when any efforts to maintain appropriate efforts comes to a draw. If an alibi transforms into a hypothesis, the hypothetical agents of agendas will beg for another hasty message from the ranking constituents, albeit meandering relentlessly among enormous imperfections. The problems roaming the state becoming reasons for disrespect among the wisest of fortune tellers.

What in the world is happening?!

Injected with acid, drowned, starved, and being used as a victim for dog attacks are only a few examples of the animal torture that’s recently been going on. What in the world is going on?! I mean, animals don’t do us virtually any harm. And if they do, then that’s natural and instinctive for them; they don’t have the mind of a human. So why can’t we just leave animals alone? But apart from animals, what’s horrible is the fact that many of us want to be horrible to others. But others might be having difficult times, and yet many disregard this. I once thought that there was a limit to the cruelty inflicted by people on both animals and humans. We don’t need to think about a world worse off than this, because this is already horrible. I can’t accept the world, even though there are probably mostly good people here. Why are the laws so lenient on such people?! I feel as though many people are practically allowing these cruel things to happen to animals, and many of us don't give a shit. Honestly, it's very sickening, knowing this. I don't like to regard people as acceptable beings; many don't have a sense of ethics, or a sense that what they're doing is wrong.

Why are the animals being tortured such cruelly?

Seriously, what’s wrong with people? I don’t consider animal torturers as humans; therefore, it’s never okay to comfort such people. The things that I’ve read are things that you can’t even describe. It makes me wish that this world had an exit! The fact that the rest of the world is so peaceful, is extremely discomforting to me; I can’t accept that. When there’s no war, there’s a state of discomfort because although we are progressing in a way, we are also digressing in a way, ethically.

I never want to be here again

I never want to return to this local area, because of the people here. The people here make me feel downright uncomfortable. This is not why I exist. Life isn’t meant to be suffering. Ultimately, I live with the philosophy that this world simply isn’t what it’s meant to be. Apart from this, when I read what people do to animals (apart from my local area), it makes me terrified of what they’ll do to me. I’m treated like a piece of trash, and people keep being fine with that, but I’m not fine going around pointing out the positive aspects of society, when I read about the torture inflicted on animals. Sure, there is also good in this world, but I’m afraid that it’s trumped by horrible intentions. Why did I go off topic to talk about animals? Because from my perception, it seems as though people want to, or like to, do the same, except often it’s not physical but phsychological. I feel a disconnect with the world; however, those that stray away from me are those that I tend to forget about, becuase they’re not worth being friends with. They may have friends, but that’s just how fucked up this society is; I don’t matter, but instead, the wellbeing of people in general matters! Then how can you people expect me to be sympathetic all of the time?!

The Demented looks people give me, and their demented effects on me

Don't let people bully you, or else they’ll kill you. That’s essentially what happened to me, and it’s exactly how I feel like those who tried to call me as a fucker, or showed me the finger for absolutely no reason, weren’t normal people by any means. You could tell it by their look that they meant serious business; eventually, they actually want to kill, and yes, I’m being serious! This is a seriously dangerous society that we live in, so trust me with my advice. It’s full of people who aren’t really human at all, they’re subhuman and yeah. I merely make slight mistakes and because of that, people behave demented towards me; what kind of entity am I, to deserve this? I’m human, I’m not perfect. I am seriously and literally fearful for my life when I see these people. What in the world is going on inside people’s minds these days? I don’t think that demons are real, but that’s essentially what some people are. They’re demons. For this reason alone, I would like to escape this life. But as usual, I don’t have that choice. I wish that there was freedom away from these people! You people are indescribably demented! If there was such a thing as the term “demonic”, it’d be the very definition of probably all of these behavior's. And I think that many of those that aren’t “demonic” are overwhelmingly annoying, or unpleasant. One example of a terrifying person is when I’m driving through a sketchy neighborhood during rush hour, the guy on the street turns around and of all people he could look at, looked at me with a kind of facial expression that only a demented individual would make! But no, it must’ve been a coincidence; the problem is that it’s been happening to me a lot! And then everyone seems to deny what’s been happening in my life. I come home after that, only to have other people be mad at me and make me feel literally unpleasant. I always seem to have bad luck, which manifests itself as arguments with others. Why is it that the longer I stare at an individual, at least strangers, the more demented they look at me?! The more I think or don’t think about it, the more my perception of our reality changes. I’d die to have a trance for every demented look given to me, because I’ll never perceive the world as a good place ever again. I can’t help but to keep asking myself, what kind of world was I born into? Those looks have literally left a permanent effect on me. So one more look like that, and well, I might develop dangerous tendencies, which could literally kill me. I’d rather have died than have experienced even one of these looks! But instead, I feel indescribably horrible in this life of mine. Why would someone do this?! I thought that after all, there was a fucking limit to how people could behave. And people tell me that I'm insane, which is the very reason why I'm not normal anymore. Sure, I didn't meet MANY people before, but otherwise everything seemed to be normal. At least it would've been normal today, were it not for the fact that I have been viewed down upon extremely critically, which makes me feel that the worst will happen. The people who are supposed to help me are only making this worse. I despise it when people read my posts and think things like “He’s not in his own mind” or “He’s so childish, I can’t even believe that he’d write this”. These kinds of thoughts, which eventually only make me feel worse in life, are literally oppressive. The amount of critique that I receive from some people is overwhelming, and quite honestly, terrifying, because the implications of such critique are extremely dangerous; you could determine dangerous ideas about who I am, or what my intention is. Just stop it; it makes life miserable so much that I’m literally terrified of horrible things that people might do to me!

When does this all end?!

I mean seriously, this must be the end of it? I can't withstand it.

If they can't kill you physically, they'll bully you to death

Be a good person, or else you might be ruining someone's life! You and I never know when we're going to die, so let's try to get even with others while we can. Don't go on vacation, don't go wherever you want to go until there's fairness in your life and everything's settled down, and don't simply do what it is that you want to do; think before you act. Also, don't let others triumph over you, or conquer you psychologically, or else you literally lose at life because your emotions will drag you deeper into the darkness. The people of this world are literally horrible; many of them aren't essentially people at all, but animals who want to kill you; if they can't do it physically, they'll try to do it psychologically! Another thing that I've learned in this life is, don't worry whether you have an unfair advantage over anyone or everyone; because if you don't at least get even with the world, then you're losing and dieing an extremely cruel death. In other words, it's much better to conquer over people, even though it will leave them lower than you, than to be conquered yourself. I feel constantly as though I'm in this situation, and I acknowledge the constant fact that I'm not allowed to die, although at least there's hope for you, that you will learn to avert such situations. I honestly wish today that I had died a while ago, so that I wouldn't have to experience even a moment of this horrible reality. Not only does society prohibit me from being dead, but my thoughts reflect the inner knowledge, one that I hadn't been aware of for years, that I have been mistreated by people. In fact, I'd even go as far as to say that. I can't even understand how cruel this world is, not just to people but also to animals. And I will never be able to understand just how cruel it is when one doesn't understand another one's suffering, in which situation I myself am tempted to think that the person who's the victim should have freedom of choice because of just how horrible the suffering is. Also, it's a cruel reality, at least in my case, that people seem to misperceive me, think that I'm depressed and all that, when at the core, there's actually a much worse problem. But then again, I suppose suffering is the way of life. And psychologists and therapists might ask me questions such as, "have I thought of hurting myself or others?" Why in the world is it that I would answer such a question as yes?! That's something I can't understand. But what needs to be understood is that the horrible thoughts that I have, either in the past or present, are just a disguise for something else that's happening. I think that a horrible situation in life, such as having the constant memory of being treated unfairly, manifests itself as despair, and the way things have been even in the beginning of my despair, I shouldn't except it to get any better. I sometimes wish that someone knew or remembered more than anyone else (such as a higher power) that could talk sense into either me or others, or perhaps all of us in the beginning of all of my problems. I had a feeling a while before I had any despair, that things would get worse. But since I didn't know why, I couldn't do anything about it, and that's why everything seems hopeless now. After all, I don't know how to go back in time, but if I could, I'd die for it. I feel as though when you're in the most horrible state possible, that the "demons" are trying to convince you and/or your close ones that it's actually a different problem. There is only way as I see it, to obtain back the life that was supposed to be: erase the past, erase memories. I can’t get back together with those who have been treating me unfairly though, and even erasing my past won’t solve it all. The situation in life needs to significantly change, so that you can essentially get rid of your memories by making right what’s wrong. I’m constantly dealing with that problem in my life; I’ve been out of High School for five years, but every moment since then has felt like a lifetime, because I came out of school unfairly and I’m no longer in contact with the people who I’ve known, the ones that’ve eventually caused me to have despair. So now every situation that I'm in isn't fair, because It only keeps me away from the situation that should arise, which is for me to reverse the situations when people have mistreated me. I can’t help but think these thoughts, because they are important and I keep getting further away from fairness merely by the change of time. So my lesson, if I haven’t mentioned already, is that if someone insults you or attacks you, try to get back at them or reverse the situation, because of the fact that we ourselves don’t know when we’ll die, and if we die in a car crash in a moment, for example, that will be the ultimate mark of unfairness. The “devil” is successful in my life in this way, and unless I get even with everyone, I will keep moving ever farther from those good emotions of the past. I know that you might argue that god’s real, and I can understand this; I'm not arguing anything. The problem, however, is that I can’t simply trust and be totally convinced that he exists and there will someday be justice. It’s YOU who needs to enact justice! Otherwise, life is torture because the “demons” have won, and you might not even be aware of it! So please, take my advice and don’t even think about the idea that others can conquer over you, because that’s the very definition of the most horrible thing that can ever happen. (Therapist asks me if I feel that the worst is going to happen. It already did.)

More people becoming victims

More people, in particular teens, over recent years are becoming victims, as is evidenced by this link: https://view.yahoo.com/show/nbc-nightly-news/clip/61118600/new-study-shows-more-kids-are-thinking?utm_content=thumbnail&utm_source=yahoo&utm_medium=referral&utm_campaign=playnextembed

I think that it’d be nice to go to Virginia, listen to some Kygo, go meet some people there from days past that I knew from High School and never been friends with (them somehow being in Virginia). I think it’s nice to have fantasies, about a world that should be, not that exists currently. Wonder if those people would still smile if they seen me, and if we all became smarter like we should’ve. I wonder if I’ll ever get to go to Bulgaria, and whether we all actually come from one place somehwhere. The universe started as one, but it seems as though it’s not true, that I don’t belong, at least with some people.

The beautiful lyrics

It never fades away, it’s staying. And all the greatest wars end in violence. There’s no room in war for feelings. Remind me to forget.

The physical self vs the other self

It’s all fun and games when one is doing well, that is, when one's doing well physically. But at the same time, for me my soul is destroyed constantly, by how others perceive me and the fact that this world is just wrong for me. That’s why I wrote that the world is mundane, everything that we are familiar with is actually mundane, belonging to the Earth, which is not where I think we should belong. I think that we need to look into our “soul” more. In the past, perceptions might have been different, but I've come to realize how insane people are now.

The Problems Of Society

I simply don’t understand how so many people can function “perfectly”, given the people in this world. As humans, we despise pain, whether it be physical or other pain. For me, phsychological pain is equivalent to physical pain; when someone acts a certain way to me, that’s like being kicked in the crotch, except that it never goes away. I think people should quit complaining, quit acting out their madness and aggression towards those who have nothing to do with it, and think about why they are living here on Earth. I often ask myself why I’m here, or why I was born, since I experience such suffering; however, that’s considered insane, and I’m not free to express my truest feelings and/or emotions. Please control yourself, and remember what in the world you’re doing. Unless this happens, we will constantly keep living in a world of fear, abuse, and madness; I despise this kind of world. Psychologists, therapists, and the like aren't helpful; they only take me further down this dark place. Because others will literally never change, and also not perceive me differently, I don’t have any more desires and don’t want to participate in all of this.

Interesting stuff

As crazy as it might sound, I tried talking about something, I don’t remember what exactly, but it was regarding the holocaust. I don’t know what made me do it. It was just a question. I don't know if it's relevant in any way, but I'm part European. And ever since that day, people would sometimes tell me “Fuck you” or “Fucker” if they saw me roaming the town. In school, they called me bitch at least three times and I was eventually attacked at least twice. Some stupid SOBs don’t know how to act properly, and they’re too retarded to tell me sorry. I guess that’s what would happen to you also, if you talked to a jew? I had a bad feeling when I asked the question, like the worst is going to happen. Ever since that day, I’ve been feeling like shit and despite my efforts, trying practically everything, to reverse the situation and turn the horrible present into what my past life was like. Not only will I never repeat these actions of mine, but also want to warn others that a single incident, as small as asking a question, can trigger the “demons” that inhabit our society. There are some truly sick bastards out there, and I want you to know that in my experience, all of them except for one, were from Eaton Rapids. Now, there are various people in my hometown, but I’d never send anyone to study there, because quite honestly, the high school is a terrifying place. And what about that one that wasn’t from the local area? I’ve had a guy one time pass me and tell me something like, “Fuck you, fucker”. I was in total terror; sometimes, people literally seem as though they want or plan to kill. I’m quite afraid of this society in which we live in, someone ought to take me away to some other distant place. These people, they never apologize to me, are unforgiving, and I keep feeling like some piece of trash that even though many care for me, nothing ever makes up for the “demons” of the world. They ought to be quarantined. Those who care for me and/or my well being might be caring for me, but it doesn't matter how well they care, or how many of them care, when I know that there is lack of forgiveness, and those people dropping bombs on me.

Looks like a drought approaching

It seems as though a drought is beginning here in Southern lower Michigan. I think it'd be a great idea to go on a road trip, at least for one of two days to get away from this oppressive weather.

Life in our universe and other universes

https://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2018-05/du-cam051018.php

https://weather.com/science/weather-explainers/news/2018-05-12-pyrocumulus-fire-cloud-severe-thunderstorm-hail-texas

Those of us who don't know

Есть ли более высокая сила? Основываясь на моем чтении, это, вероятно, очень вероятно, чем ответ - нет. Это очень спорная тема, но я бы хотел ответить «нет» и немного изменить правду, предложив альтернативу, которая, вероятно, понравится людям, которые действительно верят, и тем, кто этого не делает. Если вы начнете думать, что что-то истинно, в частности, более высокая сила, может возникнуть шанс, что он станет реальным, но это может быть страннее, чем вы думаете! Когда я говорю такое, кажется, я просто говорю о том, что в вашем сознании становится реальностью. Возможно, это также становится реальным, как в материи или энергии, которая, возможно, может быть внешней по отношению к разуму. Или, по крайней мере, когда мы начинаем верить во что-то, эта привычка действительно может повлиять на то, что есть. Я думаю, что также может быть правдой, что то, что существует в «загробной жизни», - это еще не исследованная область, которая фактически состоит из сознания. Если мы начнем использовать наше сознание, то, возможно, какое-то влияние на вещество или энергию. Я также думаю о биологическом мире, который, возможно, является следующим сдвигом парадигмы, который люди могут использовать для продвижения общества в будущее. Если бы вы могли создать биологический мир, то наше сознание могло бы быть даже разделено или взаимодействовать с таким миром. Научные исследования показали, что религиозные убеждения не имеют никакого эффекта, например, при выполнении ритуала более высокой власти, чтобы больной человек стал здоровым

My life at the moment

This is exactly what I was afraid of. Nothing is more scary.

Seriously, CERN

The experiments at CERN are causing something really perplexing, this is some really strange stuff!

New magazine

The magazine tells about how the universe could just be made up of math! In fact, it even mentions that there could be something more, something beyond math; an aspect of reality which we still don't understand, and perhaps only a more highly advanced species could tell us about! You can read the information in the quote in the last paragraph.

https://www.treehugger.com/health/most-sperm-nowadays-are-misshapen-and-unable-swim-properly.html

https://www.alternet.org/environment/thanks-scott-pruitt-30-million-pounds-brain-damaging-pesticide-will-be-sprayed-crops

New magazine

Well I couldn't withstand life in sense, so a while ago I decided it would be best to buy something to read, and something to keep my mind off of other stuff that I would be better putting off for some other time, not sure when. I bought the New Scientist magazine; it's about consciousness, science, time, and reality. This is going to be interesting!

Interesting Tech

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xRcvpYzrEjc

http://www.theeventchronicle.com/health/a-look-into-non-violent-communication-how-it-will-transform-the-world/

When dew points exceed 100 degrees, Cumulonimbus clouds can easily exceed 75,000 feet

As Carbon increases, eventually it's very likely that we may reach a time when C02 reaches it's saturation point, therefore no further warming. However, the warmer the world gets, the better some plants, if not all, will grow, therefore the total photosynthetic surface area grows, mitigating or eliminating any further warming. This isn't something that I'm certain of, but I thought that I'd offer some insight, and I think it should be considered during climate debates. Personally, I'd be interested in seeing real climate changing first hand, because that would lead to more interesting weather patterns and systems. However, at the same time, I'm not happy at all that humans might be the cause of our climate problem; I don't know if that's the case or if there even is any climate change worldwide, but the prospects of it being real are both fascinating and exciting. CB clouds, which are actually just large Cumulus clouds, have already been observed in Texas to top out at 75,000 feet, and the recent storms of during May 1, 2018 have come impressively close to that height. I'm very interested to know what happens once the storm season shifts from May until later on in the summer, and dewpoints will then have a chance to exceed 100 degrees, something which I don't think has ever been recorded.

Electric Quakes

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hWEn5JZ22dk

Warm the arctic, cool the tropics, or both?

I personally would be interested if we (at least in theory) either warm the arctic as well as Antarctica, cool the tropics, or do both. This would cause the difference between temperatures in the arctic and tropics to decrease; winds would most likely decrease in intensity, but the problem that I see is that jet streams and ocean currents would quite literally be messed up, and that could be an extreme effect on ecosystems. However, the thought is still fascinating to me, because eventually, we could just about eliminate all weather disasters. Either that or people shouldn't live where natural disasters take place!

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Let's see if anything happens. I hope to take some Vitamin B6 from now on, so that I can remember what places are in my dreams. I might dream about this exact place later tonight, but it might be too late to know exactly what happens. I think it might be a burglary. Also, go to http://reallybloggy.blogspot.com/2018/05/blog-post.html for more!

Major storm in Bering Strait caused two Texas sized area of ice to be gone

reminiscent of global warming https://weather.com/news/news/2018-05-03-bering-sea-ice-plunges-into-record-low

Plants can communicate w/ each other!

https://phys.org/news/2018-05-underground-neighbors-stressed.html

New scientific discovery can make hippies happier

Time crystals: sounds imaginary or like science fiction, but these real things exist in items that can be readily found at toy stores, as well as fertilizer. https://www.sciencealert.com/time-crystal-signatures-found-in-extremely-common-compound-monoammonium-phosphate ;Hippies celebrate!

Someone ought to get rid of all of this

Someone please get rid of my memories and everything off of my social media, get rid of everything!

Why do you go down this road, when you don't want to walk with me?

Someone ought to really erase all of my memories!

MAJOR Heatwave!

https://www.wunderground.com/news/2018-05-02-pakistan-possible-global-record-high-april

My hometown in EDIS!

and yes, today it caused an earthquake!

It will be an interesting discussion I hope.

I'm interested in weather and what happens when, right before a tornadic supercell comes along, the dewpoint reach over 100 degrees? What will then occur, will the tornados be stronger, will there be smaller but more numerous tornadoes, or will there simply be more intense hail and rain and/or lightning? And how about if the dry season, the warmest, generally came not during spring but during summer; What if the dry season starts shifting?

I predict stratospheric warming event today

Over the arctic, I think that a stratospheric warming event might be likely to occur late today.

Premonition Update

This is bullshit!

Seriously now, it seems as if no one wants to subscribe to this blog; it's like bullshit!

A Large Earthquake Today

104 year old scientist has message for us!

https://www.sciencealert.com/this-scientist-s-104th-birthday-wish-is-to-die

How to remember dreams better

https://www.treehugger.com/health/how-remember-your-dreams-try-taking-vitamin-b6.html ; so therefore, you can now document any potential premonitions of yours with more likelihood of success!

Reflecting on life

I can't count the innumerable number of times that I've failed at life, or how many times I lost happiness for good.

Is the article true?

https://www.treehugger.com/social-media/guide-figuring-out-if-article-youre-reading-true.html

The Arctic is about to get warmer

https://robertscribbler.com/2018/04/30/major-arctic-warming-event-predicted-over-the-coming-week/

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Major storm on the 9th in Michigan

A major meteorological storm is coming our way. Just you wait; the Midwest will get the brunt of this mess on the 5th. Michigan will see major disruptions caused by this storm. Just sayin'. This in particular is not necessarily totally a premonition, but one that is also associated with weather forecasting. The following is a premonition... The next storm afterwards in Michigan will be the 9th. And that last statement's true, on the 9th of May 2018 there will be severe storm in southern Michigan and tornado warnings elsewhere in the Midwest. Remember, tornado warnings can happen any day. Be prepared and calm down.

Reflecting on life

I suppose that I might not have been as good a person as I perceived myself to be! I guess I'm too self centered and whatnot. But after reflecting on all of this, I think that I've changed for the better. But then again, change isn't good when you're trying to stay yourself.

Weather Update

Well, here's an update to the weather here in my area, Eaton Rapids (Michigan). It's supposed to be the first 80 degree day of the year! But it seems, based on my perception, that in recent years it hasn't been as warm as it's supposed to be. The last warm year seemed to be 2013; for example, 85 degrees were achieved by mid march! So I suppose that if that trend continued, it could be in the 90's already. Maybe I hope that it gets hot again. But, as usual, once it gets that warm it doesn't stay around for long. Some severe storms are supposedly forecast for the coming days, although not in Michigan; I expect severe weather to come here during the 5th of May 2018.

Action cams and phones with manual controls and SLR lenses?

I think that it would be very interesting to have a camera such as the Gopro, or maybe even a cameraphone and be able to mount SLR lenses to it! Just think about it, manual control of focus and/or aperture, along with big touchscreen monitor! (BackBone is one example). If the Gopro or other action cams gain full manual control, then I'm definitely considering buying such a combination over an A7 series from Sony. The thing is, I think that I'd prefer that the camera be heavier than the lens, not the other way around, therefore giving me better stabilization. I don't know about you, but this definitely seems a fascinating concept. Phones have a great user interface, even better than that of many, of not all, cameras. I think that the user experience would be very intriguing!

Time at the subatomic scale

I wonder if time perception would be different were you the size of a subatomic particle?