I don't even have to check Facebook

I just came back from a two day vacation. The only time I used internet/wifi over this time was when I was on Google maps. With that being said, without even checking Facebook, I almost know that I'll have lost friends! Again, people coming up with no reason but to remove me from their Facebook friends list. One just wishes that it not be true. I don't think I'll ever understand. I guess I'll always be treated like a piece of trash! I don't know if it's relevant to this, but also, when I'm on vacation, I see random people and feel an excruciating pain, the pain of never meeting them again, especially if it's a "loved one" (someone who I want to love). The truth is that this world isn't meant for me, either that and/or maybe there is a deeper, hidden meaning, that can only be understood by a lifetime of thinking? The effects aren't just on the mind, they are also on the universe itself! Why must I constantly despair so much, and why is it that the situations that I encounter (meeting strangers) is totally unforgiving? The world in which we live in is literally indescribable! When you actually see people that you'll never meet again, thereby you made a decision to never see them again!