My life is shrouded in darkness, but I know that there's relief

My life is shrouded in darkness. I know that somewhere, there is relief. The relief is like sunlight on the fields, penetrating the empty darkness, the empty void which my life is amidst in. But unfortunately, I doubt that the sunlight is in this life. I remember good times, and I'm thinking back to good times! Remember when times we're good. But now it's as if we're in a totally different world. I'm looking forward to some relief, which unfortunately I don't think comes in my lifetime. It has to come some time after my life. Yes, but why? You might ask. Why is it this way? Why doesn't relief come in own lifetime? Well, that is a good question, then. You see, life is full of happiness, good thoughts, but is also full of bad things, or bad emotions. In my life, the bad or negative emotions have far outweighed any positive feelings or emotions, such as happiness or contentment, those of which can't be redeemed or . I don't know what to do. I'm hopeless. I don't want to know anything about the future, not even any information about the future, because it's better not to know or even think about what's coming! Health is most important. Health is more important than a job, than school, than anything that you can possibly think of. And that's why I want to be healthy. I'm healthy now, but I want my soul to have good health. I say soul because that's just about the only way I can describe it.