Unacceptable

This is unacceptable. Life is unacceptable. I want to forget about my life and just escape from it. Something indescribable is happening to me and the only way for it to be stopped is if this all ends. I feel like I've been kicked in the crotch but with the exception that my pain is psychological and that it stays with me until I die. I despise this life of mine. it  shouldn't exist.