Life Isn't Fair

:Life isn't fair; it has destroyed me from deep inside. I've been psychologically killed many times before. It just isn't fair. How am I supposed to go on? And you may act surprised that I act this way. I feel like since I've left High School, all of the time that has passed has been wasted time. I'm currently wasting time and I despise it. I once had such an enormous variety of emotions, and everything literally extended into infinity, with nothing being wrong. Now my life is anything but infinite. I feel as though I've spent more than a lifetime already, wasting time and having a horrible time, feeling horrible and bored and downright in anguish. Currently, my life is indescribable. Time should definitely not have taken a turn as it did. It didn't end fairly, and life won't end fairly, because you can't go back in time to change things. Ever since high school, I've felt every bad feeling that you can and can't even imagine. Things have always looked down for me. There has been nothing but everything has been negative, that is, everything has begun and ended negatively for me. It's serious, because it seems to me as though it affects everyone in the world, literally. When I listen to a song, it makes me feel horrible deep inside because I know how the song once sounded like; it was wonderful and seemed to extend beyond time. Now I feel practically nothing from music, even though music isn't the only thing that I feel practically nothing from anymore; the same goes with TV, as well as games, etc. Nothing seems to make me even feel good no more. And if it does, then I feel bad afterwards, as though I have done something bad, which honestly, seems inexplicable to me. I've been writing for so much time now, and nobody seems to care. They either ignore what I've been writing, or take things to the other extreme, and think too critically of me, and that destroys me. Oh, how wonderful life could've been, is not even something that you can grasp. Everybody should realize this.