Anguish And Despair Aren't Worth It

The anguish and despair that my life causes me has no limits, and is indescribable. It's impossible to live like this. No one ever helps me out, they just take me critically for what I write or say. My life, it's not life. I can sense negativity towards me. I remember times that were once so much greater, that words cannot possibly describe them!!!!!! That's how bad it is now.