Too depressing to think about anything

Sometimes I wish that strange and bizarre news were true, and it's not; It's too depressing. The fact that strange and mysterious news isn't coming and that it isn't actually real is too depressing to keep thinking about the world at all. I've been hoping that something would change in this world so that I could be saved. Reality is too depressing to even think about. Everything, anything that there is, is depressing too think about and causes a major amount of despair in me and instills the deepest feelings in me. I despise it, but there's nothing that I can do about it. I just need to wait for an end. When everything ends, that will be acceptable.