I Miss The Past Life

I miss my past life, meaning the life that this life was at once. Nothing interesting nor happy happens anymore, just mundane shit all of the time that does nothing except constantly killing my brain cells. I've had to surrender to this life of mine, which is what I'm trying to reverse but to no avail. I wish that this reality would end. Someone should pull the plug on the simulation. I don't want to be part of this reality.