Incident At My Home

Yeah there's bound to be horrible stuff happening at my house because I've got bad influences on my life. Hopefully you could help me, if only you could! I enjoy reacting violently, but I can't do it any other way or else it hurts down to the core. I don't like to consider my house as my home, because 1) it's not mine, and 2) It doesn't feel like home. Home seems like more of a feeling or emotion, a state or sense of self, and not a place!!!!!!