I have a calling to not belong to this Earth

Dear reader, whoever you may be, I'm in despair. I've been so since November of 2016. If you haven't read my blogs, then you wouldn't understand. Where are we to go now? I want to leave Earth and go home. This is not a cosmic thought so to say. I have a calling to go home This is like I want to get away from all of the psychological pain that I've been tormented with. I might as well have been physically, I mean to some it's the equivalent of acute physical torment. In other words, I've essentially been physically tormented throughout life. I've never been at ease throughout the years. There's a chance at something new though and that's what has to happen. Please leave any comments and/or suggestions. I want to have something new as in a new life, though not by having Earth be my home anymore.