I feel like life is an animation and the elements of design are my emotions

I feel like my life is being used as a tool...seriously! Essence of life is like a tractor, and the fuel for the tractor represents motivation. The more inspiration there is in my life, the faster and more efficiently the tractor goes and works. True? The more mundanity there is, the more I die inside. I've already essentially died several times from the day to day mundanity. After some time, I get easily bored. But getting back to the topic, I think that the ground is like persistence, and the air is dynamic. Perhaps you might not be dynamic, motivated, inspired, essential, and persistent simultaneously, but at least you're like one of the elements of the picture, you know?! I mean, what if you could be the whole picture at once? Then you could see the whole picture! But focusing on just one aspect, or element, can lead to a life that's equally as successful. People would like to use my life as a tool, but at the same time I like to think about "using life as a tool" as something, an analogy, for something positive, something that can bring success! So think about what elements go into your life, and perhaps your life is made up of many pictures, each one is just a single frame of an animation or video, or perhaps even an entire movie. The elements of motivation, persistence, and the like could be static, and you could perhaps find some solace, or perhaps those elements are dynamic in that they could be constantly changing. I recently thought about making an animation to describe my life, in which elements of design would reflect my emotions.