My dream last night

Last night, I had a dream. And I was at the shore of an ocean. I started swimming in the midst of the water, but the water was relatively warm. But no matter how much fun it was, there was still one thing that totally overwhelmed me; it was the vastness of the ocean. Since that night, I learned something new; that in life, I start swimming and it starts to be fun (the water is like my life) but I'm overwhelmed by the vastness of it all, the grand scheme of things of this world. I'm overwhelmed by life, by boredom, and by the reality that lies ahead; no matter how happy I get in life, the whole vastness of the situation of life, when I know and realize that it's not the right way to go, overwhelms happiness. And the good thing is that unlike everyone else, I realize that life is really a vast open body of water, in which I'll eventually drown and literally, die, in an extremely cruel way... because just like a lack of oxygen, the lack of happiness and contentment (through boredom and mundanity), I will drown in a cruel way. ...but when it's all over, that's the time that I fall in love, just because I get back happiness from knowing that everything has ended.