I'm a lost soul roaming this world

I'm just a lost soul who needs to conform to society's beliefs that are ingrained in me. I have my own personal belief though, that I can already depart this world just to have peace and be reincarnated without returning to this world. It's not even funny. I want to believe that I can escape everything and be in another realm in which I can restart and live my life as I want, my ambitions perfectly achieved at th perfect time. Time in this life has been wasted and shifted into the afterlife